haha.. okok.. havent been bloggin cos its either i was lazy/ bad mood/ sleepy. lolz.. well.. i had Biochemistry Practical exam today.. haeh.. was particularly careful in my pipetting loh.. n i have memorized the parameters really well.. but i dont know why.. i think its the pipette fault man. ming ming its 900 uL + 100uL = 1 mL right? but the microfuge tube says its more than that! i tried to adjust and do again.. n its still da same. so cant be bothered loh.. jst put it in.. shud have known man.. haeh.. i screwed up the unknown solution.. too much dilution already.. sobsobs.. in the end.. i've got 7.2mg/mL for my concentraton, differs from my friends.. well.. cos thers a variety too.. some has 8.6 / 8.9 / 9.7.. hmm.. omg.. im out.. sigh.. wonder how much penalties will i get.. Vita got disappointed with me.. of course.. *sorry Vita* .. im so tolol... haeh.. well at least my standard curve wasnt too bad.. hehe..Tomorrow's exam will be Food Microbiology Prac.. so what is my bug mann.. Ecoli or Salmonella?? arg.. i really wanna go over the proper medias again n tests.. but really, im lazy.. haha.. cant be botehred.. tom is open book aniwae.. i can bring my piles of notes in. huauauahua.. well.. we'll see tomorrow allryte? heheI wonder how will i do this semester.. its too quick for me.. suddenly its thursday; werribee day. i thought the week has just started? sigh.. its been like this for 12 weeks already. and this week is the last week of da semester.. im gonna take lotsa pics tom with my frienz.. hehee.. *luckily im smart to borrow dah's cam yesterday*heuuehuehuehue im sure the thick skinned friends of mine will pose lotsa piggy poses hauhauhau the genitzz and the centilzzz.. haha.. i must admit i am, but not so extreme la.. heheehrm.. dinner tonite was good! i made stew and beef curry and fried some fingerfoods (for da guys) haha.. for the first time, me, dah, my bro and his gf ate together at the dinner table! so happy that my brother has opened up towards dah2.. seriously, we talked and discussed whats on the news.. though most of the time i wasnt listennign la.. i was observing dah dah and my bro talking.. so happy hehe.. *who cares about which prime misnister gets the blame* hahaa.. lol.. although i didnt eat much, (which is why im feeling hungry now at midnite) i feel full and yea.. just happy. erm.. and then we had dessert (apples + orange *yeah one of the 20kg orange* --> i still have it can u believe it? hauhauha; someone has to help me fnish it man + this one pathetic banana.. its looks rotten from the skin, but the inside stil nice. yumm.. love bananas! ) anway.. dah dah left after watching "everybody loves raymond" he's so dumbb!! if my husband ever loses the wedding tape.. im gonna skin him alive! like what dah dah do to those scorpions in his WOW. haha.. haeh.. funnie show.. and robbiee.. he's so huge n funnie.. i wonder where will i be if i stand nx to him. maybe 2/5 of his height? haha oh no.. make that 3/5. i think he will be v nice to hug though.. i like to hug huge fluffy things.. ehe.. i loved my forever friends bear from my ex.. its with Angel.. the last time she fought with me over that.. aha.. hopefully its stll safely kept ... But there's dahdah to hug so its ok. haaa..talking bout him.. just made me unhappy yesterday.. ( so i didnt hug him) i dno why he has to raise his voice lho.. i mean.. he's being insensitive to my feelings mah.. i duno why, im very protective of him now.. i was never b4 with my exs.. why ah? i wish i wasnt that sensitive.. i cannot DEFinitely cannot stand it if he goes out alone with other girls. that has somehow became my policy, early this year. haha.. i think, if i have already stated that worry in me, n he still disregard that, i will feel that im not important anymore. why would someone forgoe this because of just a normal "old" friend? If i had stated i dont like it if u go out on an 1 on 1 date, n he still does it, how am i supposed to react to that.. its like.. if my mom says i cannot go out of the country alone with my boyfriend, and i DO it, ain't I asking for trouble? cos im defintely gonna upset her.. she definitely hasn't trust me enough, and will do it when she gained my trust. especially when she gets it from my boyfriend. if she can trust me, and him, she will allow me to go out with him alone, out of da country even. right? thus, the same scenario... sigh.. TRUST has deeply ceased within my vocabulary.. i wonder if there is a supplement i can take to regain "trust" does any phamacies sell any? or perhaps, vitamin shops even?Holiday is coming soon.. n if i havent got any replies frm any companies in sg.. im doomed.. sigh.. i hope i can get a job in sg, so taht while i do my industrial palcement, i can spend the whole of DEc- Jan in there.. otherwise.. hrm. how long should i stay in sg? *headache* i havent buy ticket to indo somemore.. PLEASE REPLy mE MAN compaNIES!! whaT U DOing??? Argggh.. does anyone every check emaiLS?? gRRRRRso long.. i think i btter go to bed.. tomorrow's got exam and i have to get up at 7... sobsob.. hopefully my finger recovers though..it hurts so much.. the index finger.. i get it sprained or sth.. weird.. i dont think i cracked it just nw..perhaps the saucepan was too heavy when i wnated to transfer the food to the bowl? *haeh*anwiae.. *yawnss* gg to sleep n call dah dah le.. *zzz*=-==-==- tsun.. u're better? glad u are.. *HUGZZZZZ* sorry havent got time to chat again, kinda stress bout today n tom.. hehe.. tty soon okei??=-===-=-=-==-=-=-=-=-=-
shAnz
6:05 PM
Back bloggin again! hehe.. hrm.. just finished watching the Amytiville horrOr with dah dah.. its frikkin sCARy. cReepie.. urg..its all his fault. Both of us initially watched on his desk, where his com is, then he said,"can we move to the bed? I dont wanna sit so close to the com, its not so scary when frm the bed," then occasionally we will hide our faces behind the bolster and blanket because of the freaky scenes. I asked him why he rented this, its so scary! Funnie thing is he answered that he rented it because he wanted to scare me, but he got himself scared too! huahuaha.. But hell, that show is really scary. It reminds me of "The skeleton key" *brrr* i'll never stay in a house with an attic/ basement ever. ever. girls, if u havent watch that, u should nt, unless u're brave, and dont get nightmares n stuff okay? well.. nice show i must say. lOve the ending *so u shud know what kinda ending u will expect eh* heehee.. oh well.. today i've been studying, Food Micro - but just 1 long lecture! argh.. so slowww.. and oh a little on biochem though, trying to understand the Whole Genome Shotgun.. argh.. do any1 happen to understand it well? can help me? heheerm.. feel really guilty because i didnt do much revision yesterday. WEnt Yumcha and SHopping instead. hehe.. Lets see.. i bought Sass & Bide jeans 2 days ago.. then yesterday i bought 2 pairs of shoes; a snicker, orange bright one. and a ladies shoe. Hrm.. and.. a top, and i got a free phone too! A1000 Motorolla. A PDA phone. hehe isn't it great! No more NEC616 huauahuhauaha!! so happie. The good thing is, its $0 upgrade from my lousy NEC, so lucky to get the sms from 3! nv really expected that. Hrm.. then its also PDA. tried installing it the whole morning today, so irritating. cos its diff! not like normal phone... and erm.. im kinda toopid in these stuff too. hehe..oh its like abt 5 hours later then i realize where the range of ringtones are..lol and there's heapS! so interesting hehe.. so i kept meddling with the phone and didnt touch my work until erm.. i feel really bad about it. hehe.. oh well.. fairly satisfied really. That day was a good bargain, the whole shopping thing. *wonder if i shud give one pair to mom* but i doubt she'll like the ladies shoes, cos its pointed and i know she doenst like that kinda shoes, and the orange snickers.. hrm.. its comfy.. but ORAnge! haha.. thanks to dah dah.. he chose it.. ok.. what should i wear with it eh? to think abt it, i dont have an orange top/ bottom! i do have orange jacket but hrm.. its spring now.. so its another problem..
stopped to do revision on food microbio..and im finally done! *sigh* so tired.. oh and im feeling so full too.. had frozen food for dinner todai.. =p so unhealthy eh? hohoho.. oh and mango for dessert.. yummmmmm.... well.. i guess thats for now.. *sleepy*
=-=- tsunting dear.. im so sorry to hear that u have such a complicated problem with ur dad.. i guess its similar to mine too.. b/c i dont see him for erm.. abt a year now? yeah.. its tough too and its diff to discuss intimate stuff with dads.. its normal, but dont worry okay? im sure he's glad u've found JH. hE's a good lad. cheer up okay? the time will come.. and.. pls have more sleep!! its doing u no good at all.. u're so thin already, gonna b prone to sickness u know?pls dont overexhaust urself okaY! take care of urself!! *hugzz* =-=-=-=-=-
-=-=-=-=-=- Diana.. thanks for the compliment, hee.. Dont underestmate urself okay.. u're good in lots of things too..n abt being erm.. gaw-block.. u're not!! owh got a poster for ya lolz.. for roxy if she likes it.. show u another day^^ =-=-=-=-
=-=-=-=-=-Dah Dah.. love u loads.. its nice to have u ard.. my massaging and cuddling machine.. HEy just in case, if u happen to see this (u wouldn't admit it aniwae); u shouldn't be peeking in MY blog okay? shoo shoo go away. this is me n my girls secrets! hehe oh oh.. and..(SINCE U ARE HERE,) pls dont be so lazy lah.. dont keep playing WOW can anot.. do ur laundRY! hehehe... muackz=-=-=-=-=-
shAnz
11:08 PM
Today's microbio prac test.. sigh.. so tough! Firstly, it says the origin of the bacteria is from this vege that has not been washed. So, after umpteen checkings, i suppose that have to be G+ bacteria, S.Aureus/Clostridium/Listeria, since they are all found in either contaminated veges/soil/salads. So there i went, to do Gram stain, to the microscope, then ARGH, cannot see anything, scrol scrol, stare, scrol sidewards, upwards, downwards.. damn.. then finally. RED. RED OMG! RED! or purple. (not sure) argh.. hw can it be G negative! argh. then i looked at the options, Ecoli, Salmonella or Campylobacter.. *grr* panic panic, how can that be? so i went to do antoher gram staining, and RED AGAIN! damn and its bacilli. ok, so definitely either of the 3 above. tried to find the right media.. but.. im still not sure, cant belive its negative, so i went to lala to ask for help *whisper whisper* hehe then argh, decided to put all possible plates for G+ and G- altogether. grr.. *so scared* went up to Sue to check, and she says, just have to do 16-streak on N.A plate, thats it. THATS IT?????
OMG. im so worried... duno if its right or not.. will Sue find that I'm not putting effort cos i put all the possible media down so she cant be bothered to help me? but afterwards i noticed some students discovered wrong G type, and she told them to go back and redo it again
so i suppose mine should be right, at least, my G negative bacilli. ^^ *phew*
well after that i realized, Robbin and Gina got the same situation as me, i suppose we are doing on da same bacteria, he's is potato salad and gina's salad. so yeah. VEGES. aniway, we'll see. i think it should be either EColi or Salmonella. WE'll see next week's culture then.. hehe.. hopefully im gonna hit that correct!
WEll this week has been prac week i suppose. Yesterday had BIochem Prac test, and it was pretty easy, except for the wrong pipetting i used. gee hee luckily its only practise test. i have to do well for next week man.. or else Vita will just kill me, yes, literally kill me, because she gave me a high mark, and she told Leon. damn. so much pressure for me, cos she specifically says: "I EXPECT u to do well for the practical exam. Dont let me down." ARGHHH... erm.. but i was really happy actually. hehe.. been so happy that i forgot to write my blog yesterday. And got scolded from DAh dah because he realized, i'll only write the bad stuff on my blog but not the good ones. Hey, isn't that good in a way? Because when u are pissed, this is a good way to vent ur anger and sooth urself somehow. hehe.. but its also true that i have to post some happy moments too, for momento and reflections.
So here i go: erm.. today lala told me really inspiring words, which i believe has hit me straight in my stupid brain, that i should not be too fiddle minded. I have my own decision, in everything i do. Right now, I will start to stop being worried about this and that and just pray, for the best. ^thanks lala^ u've been really nice.. really..
There's also another thing, i feel really happy because Dah says he feels really happy to hear my happy voice over the phone today, and that brightens his gloomy day! ^^ well.. i was shopping! how can i not sound happy! hehehe.. Went to Sass & Bide, it was sooo full with people and Jeans, few dresses and tops though. *disappointed* Bought a pair of jeans, size 26! i can actually fit. hehe.. *but it was still tight though* but i bought it anyway because its only $80, from its original $200+? but well.. like lala said, its not that cheaP also, bceause she got GASP for $80 too.. oh well.. i bought it arleady, and forget it, i'll just be happy and contented, that way it makes my day right. Hrm.. wnated to get the dress too. but there wasnt many left to choose. should have gone tom instead.. but *shrugs* tts okay. haha.. Buying this jeans will inspire me to go on diet anyway heuheuhuuhee.
erm.. then what else? owh.. been trying to contact people in sg about any food industries they know of, or rather, any friends working in placements in any food companies. i Desperately need to get one. No more time to waste! Just applied for Myojo and Gardenia. Hopefully i get some replies.. sobs.. if i dont do this, i have to do research for 2nd sem! n i dont want to. haeh.. oh well.. *pray for me* ^0^
shAnz
6:30 PM
sebelllll... hiks.. suddenly my eyes go blur.. i dont know why.. sobs.. when i tried to study, i cannot see properly on my notes, not even the words on the msn.. *FREAKed out*maybe im too tired. too shocked and relieved and then angry then pek cek.. not only my eyes are tired, so am i, mentally...i realize it doesn't pay off being overly concerned, in fact, it leads to unpleasant outcomes. why bother then? so pissed. the whole time i thought other people's welfare, and does it do me any good? I realize i shud try to be less "in control" oh yes i will.believe it or not, im wearing specs writing this..TsunTIng, u hAvent reach home.. so since im so tired and pek cek im just gonna go to bed... i'll show u another day!=-=-=-=- should i call ... ? *sigh*... forget it=-=-=-=-=-
shAnz
4:55 PM
*sobs* was watching "the biggest loser" while doing database for biochem prac just now ^0^ .. it was kinda touching.. the video part.. i can imagine how happy they were when they are able to watch the videos their loved ones had made for them. loved suzanne's and andrea's most. their fiance/husband were awesome.. not surprised they cried at all.. *huhuu* think they said something like, "Don't give up, i love you, im proud of you, bla bla mushy mushy!" manz.. even these people have such romantic lives, why cant that happen to say, dad n mom? really admire couples with such huge moral support for each other. *thumbz up!*well.. today's lecture was boring, as expected. luckily it ended early, 3 instead of 4 huahuaha.. but oh well.. went to Nandos with dahdah to have Fiesta meal.. *HUGE* but cannot finish la.. hehe, da bao home for late dinner, but since im planning on a diet, i have decided not to eat that and sticked to shortbread and apple instead. hihihihi.. luckily there's andrie to finish the food. He eats ALOT. half chicken with 1 cup of rice. hueheuheu.. so happy to feed other people.. too bad dah's not here tonite! lol.haeh.. so tired.. doing that database really is a pain in the ass. wHat is Erythropoietin aniWAY. *grrr* im stuck at the point of finding residues cleaved from mature protein. urghh.. where am i gonna find that! heaps of abstracts .. *headache* so aniway, im gonna leave that and do tomorrow. CAnt believe i have only 1 lesson, 12-1. HOHOHOHO.. shud i... erm.. pon that? .. ... ... but its the 2nd last week of sch.. might as well go.. OWH. there's tennis too. i almost forgot about it. yeaY! lets see.. hope dah dont go "homerun-in" again.. ^^=-=-=-=-==-= thought of da day: what am i gonna wear on my wedding day yah?? ehehhe ==-=-=-=-=-=
shAnz
4:33 PM
*haeh* finally got tagboard uploaded and some stuff improved. this is interesting yet tedious huh. or maybe because im so HTML- script illiterate. hehe.. *takes time* hrm.. well i suppose i'll leave that for now. huehue... tom'z gg to be another brand new boring week of brain-strainy Uny life.. And guess what, 5 hour lecture on Production Management! Hate it! seriously. sigh.. oh well.. like lala said, swot vact'z in 2 weeks time, finals in 3 weeks time.. and yeah tHATs iT! cant help worryin about the fact that i haven't done any revision for the finals though. =/ too tied down with the reports and practical stuff that i barely hav time or rather, enough brain energy cells to continue.. time flies. WHY are weekends always so SHOrt? *grr* Apart from the embarassing moment i had early this afternoon, nothing else seems interesting. Had dinner at Thalia Thai, with Dah, Kev, Isaac and Diana... food was good; the satay was yummy. So was the beef on lemongrass.. but i wasn't feeling good. i felt outa place. sobs.. i barely talked over dinner because everyone was talking about sth i didn't understand, and couldnt connect in the end.. its hrm.. sth related to boats and shuttleplane/ shuttleship or sth.. *hmph* but when they laughed, i smiled, not knowing why. just to join in the crowd.. huahuahuahua.. dumb.. maybe because of the atmosphere too.. it kinda get me sleepy.. *scratches head* then later in the car, they talked about Politics. ARgh. dun understand laaa... hahaha.. best thing, dah told me after we got home that he realized i had lack of general knowledge. Hey HEy heY! ok la.. i dONt know these things, but i do have general knowledge whut.. like science stuff.. right! aiyah cant blame me.. always get to work with prac reports and bacterias and biochem.. so yeah.. and when i watch news and they talk about demos and riots and ships and planes n stuff i'll just switch my brain off. hehe that's me. so right. i have lack of it... ='<>
well another thing was brought up over dinner, which is the extension of their lease of the house. i was hoping they wont extend, then dah can stay with me.. but yeah.. eversince dah dah brought up that subject like a year ago, that he really want to stay with me, i was overjoyed. but was scared because mom wont let me, unless she has seen him, which will be like in Dec/Jan.. so no point deciding now.. easier to contact each other, and mEET each other, no need to travel back n forth etc. oh, rent's gonna be cheaper too.. and yeah.. most imptly, i dont have to worry about him. yah, im always worried he will let me down one day..regardless of how unintentional he gets. currently, my biggest worry is this 3 mths break. heaven whats gg to happen when im in indo n he's in sg.. *sigh* no one relationship is perfect right?
NVm, its okay.. i will look into that nx time, im sure when i get a new apt next year, i'll be ExtremELY happy to be in there, out of COllege House (yeay!) cant wait to move out. caNT wait! gonna decorate it with pretty curtains, leather sofa (if poss), double beds, long L shaped tables, office chairs, cute cabinet for my soft bears... book racks.. owh not forgetting, there mUST BE oveN, and washin machine, and dryer.. Oh and Gym and Pool and Sauna.. heuheheuheuheu.. *so greedy, i know*
=-=-=-=-=- thought of da day: have more self-esteem, u're what u think u are=-=-=-=-=-=-=
*huGz n KisSEz to tsunting, for making this happen*
shAnz
6:18 PM
*smilez* what can i say? Tsunting, thanks for helpin me out! Lets see.. i've just made a moron out of myself.. Dah went out to throw his rubbish out of his house, and he tried to step on the many many piles of rubbish to fit them through the small green bin i think.. haha. and he literally stepped (hard) on the overdued carton of Pura Milk that is still 3/4 full. there u go. huahuah.. he got his sandals and feet all splashed up with milk. then he went dawdling to the laundry room to wash his sandals but ended up leaving trails of milk behind him. *sigh* haha so i quickly run to the toilet to take tissues out to wipe them out before snoopy goes licking it up. iTS expired whuT! so yah lah basically im being a good person here doing some favour and i jumped out of the bed without realizing i was "zao geng".. ARgh.. *so paiseh*
h00.. ='<
shAnz
11:36 AM
