its 28th noV alREady! tme Flies! n its tym to go back home.. sigh.. year 2 has ended. finally. n its 1 more year to go...huahuaa.. well. these days havent been bloggin n there was indeed lotsa stuff that happened.. but since i have a shorT term memory, i shall leave the unimportant ones aside. huehuehe..
wEll.. i had my 20th Bdae dinner in Taipan on the 24th NOv, instead of 20th..bcuz most of my friEnds hasn't finished their exams by then.. so yeh.. its realli nice having such gatherings once again, its been some time eversince we had one.. n everyone's happy of courz.. which is exactly what it should be... but hrm.. somehow i a lil unhappy.. perhaps bcuz everyone else might have thought it was just another simple gathering. but fer me, its my special 20th bdae... *shrugz* its over niway. heheh.. after dinner we hang out at pancake parlour for hours, gg home onlie at midnite.. just chattin away.. huahuaha..
well.. then the followin day we watched the Brother's Grimm.. i wanted to watch Corpse's Bride so much... but.. i thnk they probably wont be intersted.. Stan Ian Miin.. so well.. haha there u go. some fantasy stories.. kinda interestin.. but not to my likingz thou...
Hrmz.. then the followin day was Christina's Bdae lunch.. Yum Ca at Sharks' Finn.. well.. we didn't get to talk much, not mani ppl left.. *sigh* Christina n Eugene wore same color top.. which is really sweet.. they must have discussed that earlier.. which is sth i would love for sth on my bdae.. but... haa... nvm. Cant believe the fact that they are together though.. Eugene seem more like Chris's Brother... cant imagine him as a bf.. maybe not now ba..
well.. just had a stupid conversation with Aug earlier.. he thinks there is such thing as Alien. what the.. n i told him no way. its just him n his games isn't it so. omg.. at first i thought it was funny la.. then he went on asking Aliens could have just evoluted like us, humans. well yes, evolution with mitosis meiosis but we essentially are created by God isn't it. then he said no he doesn't believe, hw could God created all of these, just a flick of a hand? then because i think once i get into religous topics i know i wouldn't be able to convince him at a slightest bit, i decided to get angry. somehow raised my voice cos these is just absurd. n he goes, just because i hav not my grounds right i start to raise my voice. shIT. so fed up. What ALIENS. ABSURD totally absurd. aliens present. outer space? evoluting? what. how do they reproduce and all? doing what we do? sleep, watch movie, drive? oh drive UFO? go market? eat? eat what? human brains? then they have moms n dads too? who doesnt know what their kids look like since all aliens look diff? well humans are diff too but we have identical features inherited from our parents whut. do they have it? haiz.. *shakes head* thats why i cannot be bothered arguing. so funny come to think of it.
anyway. we have so mani things that we have not in common. diff likings to music, food, ideas, interest.. sigh.. n now.. beliefs.. sometimes i just hated the arguments. sigh.. but somehow.. we just got over these really easily. n gues whats the best remedy? Silence. it helps us alot. guess its the best remedy at the moment thou i know its gonna get us nowhere in time.. n its just gonna accumulate and explode like some gunpowder one day, if it gets harsh. haha.. well im just glad it works this time. mayb i do love him a LITTLE TINY WINNY BIT more than i hate his irritating personality.. thats why.
hrmz.. im gg to singapore soon.. a lil anxiety fillin tru.. mayb i dont fell as excited as Aug did.. cos im gg to an empty home.. sigh.. i wish i can have my sis/ grandma ard for once.. i miss them loads. i cant wait for 28th Dec when i get to see all my family members! anGEL. omg. i miss her like crazy.. but luckily i have tsunting, angela n toigoon... well and there's a gathering ocming up too for 4DL! so happie.. just found out wenjia's got BF.. woo hooo.. cool2.. shall see more updates soon..
ha.. i wonder if i will have internet connection asap.. i wish i can! haha.. so till then shall i update my blog yeh?
^0^
shAnz
10:02 PM
*grinz* *wide grinz* so happie so finally its over. i mean my worries. hehe.. my dah dah actually came! heuheuhe.. well its kinda late though.. like 1207 or sth.. hehe. but its okay. im So glad.. at least he made it, he made it sound sOOOO real that he's so not gonna come loh.. sigh.. made me sobbed n dread about it for dayS! *ummm actually i cried alot* hehe.. stupid me.. but oh well.. here goes..
I was sitting on the sofa in the living room studyin when my brother came home ard 1130 and then he started cooking instant noodles before he wnt to take his bAss n played some of his usual fave songs.. haha.. we talked a bit about stuff then ard 1155 he started playing "happy birthday" song for me!!! hehe n said "jie.. im gonna play this for u.. cos its uR BIRTHDAY! and dont laugh at me if i play it wrongly cos i just learn how to play.. " hauahuaa.. so sweet n i was really happy cos he hav nv been so nice towards me before. .. well last year he wasn't here so he sms me really nice bdae sms.. i was touched. but this year. even better! usually my siblings dont do much.. but now that they are older.. its just diff.. =) *thats my first big smile*
ANyway.. he played.. tryin to smile sheepishly while lookin down at the strings.. n it went smoothly till the ending where he screwed a little.. muahaha.. but its okay! it sounds like its gone improvision.. cool.. huaua.. then he came up to me n gave me a box of chocolates! (LOADS) frm choco box n says its from him n Gabby (his gF) hehe.. so happi.. but *a lil worried* cos if i eat it i wonder how many pounds will i get. Shit man.. i just promized im gg swimming with tsunting in sg lo... huahuauah.. I'd treasure it anway. haha.. of course i will eat it la.. its so cuteee.. the shapes n all. .hehe
hrm.. after that. he went back to his room n i went back studying.. n i thought.. its 1205. how come dah dah havent call yet.. hmph.. *starting to get upset*.. when.. "KNOCK KNOCK!" WAH!!! so happy.. i went out n opened it.. n saw.. huey miin!! hehe.. (deep down i thought such knockings --so ROUGH; i expected it to be dah dah.. but... <> he appeared.. all pink! hehe.. PInk polo Tee,, pink roses and pink plastic bag.. n CAke of course.with 2 pink candles!! hauuaha.. honestly.. at the sight of hueymiin.. i thought aug may not come afterall... but i expected it.. then 5 sec later..he appeared from the corner.. so i got all mixture of feeligns altogether. =) i duno what to say.. but even though it was a 50 50 kinda feelin i still feel a lil surprised. thanks to his harsh attitude. which made it so real. * i swear i thought he was mean *
Anyway..really have to thank Hueymiin for being so nice.. she came back to college square to be ther for me.. n Ian happen to get sick.. sigh.. if he's not here i think he wont get that attack also.. i hope he gets better soon.. n yea.. (oh n the fact that aug got in late is becos Ian suddenly got sick.. oh no.. hope its not because of me.. ='<) Anyway... hueymiin proveided a table i think n help to aug when he has to open the cake n prepare the candles etc.. so yea. its really nice of her knowing that she Hardly comes to Col square.. hehe.. thanks alOT!!! *hrmph.. she actually liased with aug too.. n Knew about it when i complained to her about him n all.. OH man.. so embarassing*!
Dah has done a lot i know.. i thought he would only buy my present on the 21st ie after his 252 paper. n i really didnt expect him to be buying any present for me. like i said, just a wish from him personally would be really sufficient. he got me an "S" shaped necklace, which was really beautiful and he got it in the midst of the exam period.. sigh.. n of course, got me this CUte pink alarm clock (but i paid him 2 bucks!) with this unique stand, its really pretty! it has "babu the little puppy cartoon" on it.. n its just purfect. cos he said my alarm clock is black n pah lia.. its nice loh. its Quartz.. hmmm.. huahaau aniway.. nvm.. its ognna add to more colours of my bedroom aniwae.. huauahau.. (well i will add pics as soon as i learnt how to) owh and and.. the pink roses.. its really huge. long n it has 10 of them altogheter. does it resemble anything? hee.. hope its a good thing.. but i really appreciate it.. (well i fell sorry about the lil thing that i brought up.. i know im wrong..gets jealous easily.. i just tend to do dumb things at the wrong time..i know i have to learn to trust him.. guess i jsut need time.. the situation n experiences made me so. sigh)
Its not just the present.. but its him.. just v happy to see him.. someone i wanted to see.. hehe.. surprisingly hueymiin, Ian and Stan came along too..
Stan came from his JAp Pub session lookin red n his hands are all cold *when he shaked my handS* haha. obviously he just came back n he came straight to wish me happy bdae! hehe. =) this year he didnt get my age wrong. yea its 20. haha.. he said i was 20 last year! haahh.. plus plus..
I've got a number of sweet messages n calls frm my Best friENds.. hehe.. thanks so much to everyone..
Finally 20!! 20!!!!! hahaha.. nV felt better.. (actually nth much) hauhauha
=-=-==-=-cant wait to go swimmin with u girl.. miss u loads too.. yes i will bring my swimsuit. but bikini? *ckck* when a miracle happens n shed all my fats away oke. haha. n i foresee there will be lotsa things awaitin us -- gossipings sessions and shoppings n also our "Secret moves n plans on ehm" hehe.. wait for me okay. i will be ther n we shall have loads of fun =P.. hopE i made u feel better about all these shit.. *hugzzz*=-=-=-=-==
-=-=-=-=-= Dah daH!!!.. thanks yaaaa. ur trick works. haha.. n yea. u got me this time... thanks to ur harsh responses too.. it made me believe u really didnt care about me.. sigh.. especially when u used 252 as a super hard paper n cnnot get away from it etc.. n apologized n all.. also thanks for liasing with miin n stan n my brother. didnt know that my simple sentence this afternoon will change ur plan.. haha.. but hey.. gets ur brain working.. not bad not bad.. hauuahuahua lov ya! pls be this nice all the time.. if only u can be so nice everyday... then i wont complain anymore. hhauauhauha.. then u wont headache. good suggestion? =-=-=-=-=-
shAnz
9:21 PM
Girls. u are often confused n oblivious of what they want do u.
Talk in circles, hoping u will understand and do sth about it? Well, because not everyone likes one to do sth for him/her after he/she has explicitly mentioned what he/she would love one to do. Simply because he/she isn't ur boss, isn't ur pri/sec sch teachers nor ur army commanders.
Most ladies are like babies, tickles at the very slight touch. Smiles in content over the very slight sense of comfort; be it in the form of "touch - caress", "voices of laughter", "glance of one's presence" even that of which isn't from the 4 basic senses--> "thoughts of concern"...
well i don't really have any idea of what i was gonna try to put across right now. but i know im bothered. Simply putting the 2 assumptions together, it is not difficult to make a lady her day, for most (notice not all) ladies, if one has the innovation and the will from the heart to do so....
Like what happened in "Everybody loves Raymond"; Deborah was pissed at Ray because he was making a big deal out of a silly small thing. He felt really bad not walking his date home, which happened 25 years ago in high school. duh... And Deborah can't even understand why he had to feel so BAD about that and didnt even feel bad at all when he didnt walk her to the car when she was going to be in labour when she had her twins (because he was at the kitchen making sandwiches, saying he hated hospital food =_='') So Ray had to make a confession to Deb on any occasion where he felt bad towards Deb, n has kept it in him for really long.. n hE said, when Deb went out for a party with him few mths into his marriage, with his friends n all, she made a fool out her jokes because no one laughed and he felt really bad till now because he thinks he should have laughed WITH her so she wouldnt feel embarrassed. The "thought" of it made Deb smile surprisingly. Because it is just the simple thing that someone can "dO" for u, regardless if its a weird type of sympathy, or at least, concern.. lol..
mmm... Yes yes.. i thought that wasn't a good example too...its a weird show.. weird ray. but i love it. haha. im mad.
*Am i asking for too much?*
shAnz
9:16 PM
Im feeling really weird. I cant focus in studyin right now. Called like thousand times to Mr Lim and he’s still out of town.
Guess Im getting excited n nervous all at once. I hope to hear good news. *crosses fingers* I hope he’ll let me hav the job… sigh.. toigoon says the pay may onli be $400.. but who cares… just cannot stand another day waiting to get through this. I don’t wanna know the answer by Monday..
I don’t wanna be discussing this with Gina again. Just want this to be over and done with. Oh please don’t make me nervous… Just get the phone and answer me will ya?
shAnz
1:27 PM
So many people made some sense to me today; I realized I have lotsa amazing friends around me afterall. Feel bad whenever im bitching abt some unreasonable actions, even though it happened long before.. But I cant help but think that if anyone were to be in my shoes, they will feel the same way too.
It is really a cold day today, rainy n windy.. but my heart feels calm..satisfied, for a long time, ive never felt this way. The worry in me has ceased, a lil, because I have somehow poured my agony do Diana; n she unexpectedly made me feel so much better. (it’s the same old agony) Although we aren’t close.. she helped me make my day somehow. Well I started talking to her because she was wondering what exactly happened to august’s shoe.. yes, its destroyed, by the powerful bites from either snoopy or roxy (e 2 beagles in hiz hos) they are Isaac’s n Diana’s.. apparently when Isaac wasn’t home n Diana was sleeping, either one (it was snoopy according to Kevin) bite a big hole outa aug’s shoe. Haha. Poor aug got angry cos its his shoe, I bet it must have been from someone special, but he said it wasn’t over dinner. Haha who knows. Well anyway, told her it was okay, cos Isaac and Aug gonna setlle it among themselves and she shudnt worry. ^^ he’s gonna pay him back.. which is a bless in disguise eh? New shoes for nth.. haha..
Hrm.. yea so I went on asking if she would allow her bf to go out 1 on 1, and she agreed with me.. that its not right loh.. and why would u risk our relationship with sth like that- if the girl u are going with is just a “friend” ? not worth it.
But.. yeay! So happy another person understands me. Sigh. My dear Tsunting told me once too that she will not be happy. Besides, JH is juz too nice to do that to her. I mean, he wont. N so did fu.. hehe.. he’s so nice he told me gf is priority; the attached fellow friends of his nv walks alone with another gal. he isn’t even attached and he’s saying that. So proud of him. N ‘ve been a good boy too not to scold ur up-to-no-good grpmates. I suggest u’ll just have to be firm to handle these kinda ppl man.. don’t get taken advantage of okay!
Hrm.. owh of course, the most impt thing that happened today was my FIRst Paper, Food microbiology. ARgh.. I studied sO Much for it, and only 30% of what I studied actually appeared. fUThermore, I forgot to look up n understand this particular topic on G time. Haha.. damn.. n its 15 marks. The essays were so not in content loh. Duno if I had managed to have a good crap over it or not. Oh n of course, I shud have put across some of my biochem knowledge. I FORGot to! Its somehow linked.. ah.. stupid me. Well the next paper is 3 days away. And im not even prepared. Im getting lazier day by day.. im wondering if I shud actually start but its late. I think I’ll just go to bed and start tomorrow morning. Having memory crash up ther in my brain u see.. the feeling of having one subject down is soooooo cool really. Mean it. Hehe I even did laundry when I came home, and went for dinner with Aug.. n he bought me ice cream from IL Doce Fredo too! Wow. Once in a blue moon kinda surprise.. hehe..
Over dinner we discussed about future. Which is essential… haha. He asked if I ever wonder what happens when I graduate nx year, if I were to go overseas to do my postgraduate. Will we break up or.. not? Cos If I were to continue Master of Food Science here, I will be basically dead. Dead. Dead. Dead. I hate ILFR’s organization. I doubt the Master will be better. Im thinking of doin sth in commerce or, science, sth like neuroscience or microbiology.. mayb? Or go overseas, US to do sth else. Told him we’ll see.. we’ll get to discuss our relationship again, the same time nx year, that’s if everything work out well throughout this holiday, ^^ Guess what, he promised he wont cheat on me! So glad. But im still insecure. Worrying all the time. I know im being paranoid. Like what Isaac says, I shud take it easy. But its hard. It is. Sigh, if someone were in my shoes, u will understand, First Karma occurs, I think? And secondly, once bitten, twice shy? Ever had a trauma? If so then that’s the feeling. Not to mention, there are lotsa private stuff within my family, regarding trust and betrayals.. and.. its just too complicated for me, so I really apologize, for this. I always thought this character of mine is really bad, im starting to inherit this from my mom, which I hav been warned before not to follow. I know im gonna drive my bf mad one day. But I have amazing friends ard me who kept ensuring me, things will work, with time, and that if I mention this nicely and make compromises, its gonna be allright! Yeah.. huey miin has also made a significant peaceful mind in me.. she has been a good listener, just when I needed someone, I always needed someone to confide in, but never had a chance to, I guess? Maybe that’s why my mood has been much better this week, with all these supports and encouragements.
Hey even aug did his laundry today. Gee.. haa.. im gg mad I think.. lotsa things to do.. to read.. sob.. been doing lotsa unrelated stuff besides studying this week too. Lookin for places to eat for my bdae, lookin for apts for nx year, lookin for jobs ol.. haha.. im planning for sth AFTER exams!
I really really hope I can get intern in sg.. someone pls reply? Haha so many ppl’s helping me.. *feel bad* hereby, I’d like to thank, dah, matthew, wenjia, toigoon n lieyang.. J well if im a sporean and can do 6 mths, its gonna be easier, but I can only do max 2 mths! Sigh.. sobssobs..
Owh.. I also found out that someone’s getting married on my birthday! So cool! Its my cousins’ housemate, who is working under my dad’s and well, I wish I can be there. I love to be in weddings. Just love it. Love the gown, the atmosphere, the passion.. sincerely wishin ko sugi all the best…
Not forgetting, its tsunting’s bIRthdaY NOW! 1200am Oz day light savings tme! Huahuauhauaha.. hAPPY BIRTHDAY TSUNTING!!!!!! Miss U Lots!!! **hugzzzzz** u’re bdae gift will be on its way okay! When im back in sg.. hahahaha… *good luck for ur examz*
*feeling really guilty right now* for not starting on revision.. I guess I better start. Haha.. well crouching under my quilt is really comfy.. but I had to stop.. shall continue again another day.. ^^
shAnz
7:03 PM
dah dah just left.. strange but true.. I felt so so so sad..my heart felt weird.. he has no handphone right now.. so i cannot call him...when i realized his high lighter and liquid paper is left behind, i quickly ran to the car park and *phew* caught up with him.. but.. i didn't say what i wanted to say.. he just said, "study hard".. =( i think he probably want to escape from the heavy traffic home... but.. ARGGhh i can only regret what i do..well, i always regret what i did...right now.. I just hope he can hear me? and... come back to accompany me a little while longer.. ='<=-=-=-=-=- sobs.. DAh DAH..!!! why did u go..? ='< =-=-=-=-=-=
shAnz
1:31 PM
Time flies. Its WEdnesday. 8 days to my Finals. FOod mICRobiOLOGY. sobs.. the whole afternoon today i spent it in the Law Library with Aug, Miin, Ian and Stanley.. we had quite a short bit of fun studyin together for da first time. Which surprisingly Aug n Stan didnt make the usual loud typical jokes like they always do; however there is only a short time of concentration though, for me... Seriously dONT understand what does Sue (micro lec) wants from us. SHe told us if we were to do our lectures revision thoroughly, we will probably score only 55% for the finals. she expects us to do additional readings, on basically anything: i suppose is "whatever u guess will be out on the exam; study it" WIth regard to the reading reference, we are told to "refer" to 8 sections from this thick 876 pages book, (which is the first 747 pages), and any of it could be up on the exam, consisting of the rest of the 45%. Damn. 2nd year's so tough. sobs.. i hope i can make it till the end.. *crosses fingers*oh. While I was trying hard to hold full concentration during the revision, i can't help but look at stanley who, oblivious to all of us at the table lookin at him, busily swaying himself to the Michael Buble's Home... heee he's so cute.. he's literally swaying, shoulders up and down, head down, eyes on textbook, mp3 full music <-- which is why I know its michael buble's hehe.. of course i swallowed my laughter lah.. its in the library! haha... haha.. he's so funny.. then dah has to "oi" him to keep the vol down.. then after that we heard the 2nd song out loud again. Zhou Jie Lun's new album.. huauahuaha.. miin then kicked aug to tell stan to keep quiet.. then aug called him out again (he's deaf basically cos he on the song far too loud!) but pointed out to stan that miin has sth to tell him instead (poor miin) haha.. i think stan kinda felt bad though.. hahaha.. but he turned it down anyway and said he probably shudnt be ther.. lolz.. (poor stan) i just merely laughed n laughed covering my eyes and mouth at the corner of the table.. cos the whole thing is just funny with everything gg on in whispers.. Hrmz.. then there was dinner at 730.. omG. melbourne has indeed a disastrous change. ITs hOT. ITS bRIGHT AT 730! the sun sets only at 8 i think? thats bad.. due to the dAY light savings lah.. someTImes i wonder if i shud get hungry at 730? cos its only 630.. and sometimes i wonder if i shud wake up later since its one hour earlier. nOte: for peepz who doesnt know what im talking about, Day light savings happened 3 days ago. 30th October. Time has decreased one hour, ie we only had 23 hours that day, cos we skipped it. So for example, if its 2am at ur watch now, its actually 3am for day light savings. Basically saving hours.. WEll.. anyway, dinner was 730 and i wasnt feelign hungry at all.. Duno why, even though truout the revision in the library i was craving for tid bits. but there was none. haha.. perhaps its cos of the hot weather. it ceases my appetite somehow. hmph.. we hAD a "ba gua" session though, just me dah and stan. hehe.. *secrets b/w us 3* Haiz.. But even if i say it here also no diff.. haha.. its just about chris n eugene n kevin.. wonder why love hurts.. u love someone too much, it hurts, love too less, it hurts too.. *_* no1's too blame here though.. talked to chris just now.. but i seriously duno what to say to her.. the battle in my mind goes, what should i say? Kevin is such a good bloke. He is SUch a good lover. Good bF, i mean. I can see it. I just wish things has gone right, i wish everythings per normal, like before, where everyone's happy together... i rmb the day kEV held Chris's hand in Ballarat and me n Aug was like "ba gua-ing" behind.. busy looking for signs and all in the dark dark cave.. this gold mining cave i think? hehe.. haiz.. those days were over.. Hope Chris knows what she is doing and is happy with her decisions.. and So is Kevin with his future gF, whoever it is gonna be. ^^ They are my good friends here.. and somehow the group just falls apart.. its so true.. now i know what cc sherly means.. when I said: "Its so good when your bf/gf happens to be among ur friends, ie u n ur gf/bf has the same group of friends," and she said: " No, that's bad. What if u break up? whats gonna happen? its gonna be weird.. " yeah.. i know what u mean now. Well.. juST did sth really good tonight.. i CHeered one oF my riLY GOod BUddy, hehe.. hE's my pri sch mate, but has been keeping touch ol.. i realized i have been keepin in touch more with my ZpS friends than CCHS friends.. thats sad.. ='<>
Im wondering who should I invite to my bdae dinner party.. should I ask Zhe An n Sonia n Cindy etc? How bout gareth, steph, Ai, rusmin, diana n wiwin? hrm.. so far i've got 24.. huahuaha.. omG.. im gonna be broke soon! *muz keep saving up* hehe.. buffet dinner at Thai restaurant sounds good? *headache* exam coming n there's so many things coming up!.. OH.. manz.. there's this ball too.. haiz.. should i go?? i Dont know what to wear and its on the 23rD! my exam ends at 415 22nd noV.. how am i gonna shop for that... sobs.. unless i wear what i ahve huheuuehueh.. the dress i wore to Aug cousin's wedding.. or that with the flower which dah thinks its for bridesmaid.. hmm.. *headache*
Haiz.. its 319 .. got to go to sleep.. nitezzzzz
shAnz
2:34 AM
hrmz.. im gg to singapore soon.. a lil anxiety fillin tru.. mayb i dont fell as excited as Aug did.. cos im gg to an empty home.. sigh.. i wish i can have my sis/ grandma ard for once.. i miss them loads. i cant wait for 28th Dec when i get to see all my family members! anGEL. omg. i miss her like crazy.. but luckily i have tsunting, angela n toigoon... well and there's a gathering ocming up too for 4DL! so happie.. just found out wenjia's got BF.. woo hooo.. cool2.. shall see more updates soon..
