Supa tired today.
First thing that happened was an extraordinary fuming incident. Aug n I had a stupid argument over the phone…its regarding him umm… meeting his ex but with his best friend, which is also her friend or rather, admirer. Somehow I got pissed, 1st becos I honestly dont like the idea of him meeting his ex. I know its stupid to think this way, knowing that, or rather, assuming that he loves me a lot. Duno.. just like what I told my brother, I feel that Im insecure all the time. Worrying about these is just like daily routines for me. Its sHIT I know, but I have on idea how to change the jealousy n fear in me.
I know that this happens because of previous upsetting incidents that happened sometime half year ago, but still, even though that sounds like sth tt happened long tme ago, it just got buried deep beneath the aches of my heart. So Im constantly feeling paranoid about this… its hard for me to explain this, no one will ever understand me, unless he/she have the power of having Dumbledores’ potion that enables one to feel and see how I have gone through those times. Notice its not “that time” but “those times”.
So…. Where was I? yepz. So I got merely annoyed by this that I actually called Mom to change my tix to sg ( my whole fam is gg to Sg for xmas n nEw year) from 25th to 28th Dec so that I can go with them, since I have my tix booked 3 days earlier, n guess whats that for? OF cOURSE to spend xmas with dah dah. Just for him. Yea.. n I actually lied to mom I cannot change the tix since I bought it from internet (zuji.com), when I actually don’t know whether I can or not. Haa. Well.. I really was lookin forward to spend that kinda special occasion, with him, esp when he told me Xmas is always his favourite day of the year! So I;ve been mesmerized to go back.. cant wait in fact.. but the rage in me.. sigh.. just ruined all that.
Mom called back to tell that she managed to change to 28th dec. I was UTTERLy Shocked. Cos I expected them to say I cannot change it! Desperately crying and trying to gather myself together, I regret saying all those earlier. Stupid me right. On one hand, I thought, Since mom n dad hav been asking me why cant I go togheter with them, Maybe I shud just leave this since Apparently the tix can be changed! But .. its kinda wasted.. cos I promised to meet aug and also to spend time with my friends in sg! Sobz.. if I were to go back on 28th, I will have to acc my fam,, not much time to spend with them le.. so I panicked and after about 2 hours, with the continuous smsing with aug telling him the above, he got angry n upset because of what I did, so I called my mom again to ask her if I can change the tix back to 25th. N explained to her everything. That I wanna spend xmas with aug and that this is the first and probably the last time im gonna do that.. duno if nx year we can.. sobs.. and… that I quarreled earlier so I was in a rage when I asked her to do that for me.. n surprisingly, she understands me! Ehhe.. so happy! Then she helped me call and a hwile later, I got my flight back! Although diff time.. but stil… hehehehehe.. so happy!
Well.. then.. sth else made me angry today! My NEW Chauffeur! It’s a sHE. And she is really really slow.. I mean.. haiz.. I duno if its being new or what? First she doesn’t know the roads. And I have to tell her.. IMAGINE. ME! Omg.. im so INDO ROADS ILLETERATE man.. anyway. Wasted half tank yesterday gg ard the “world” haha.. then today we went to the driving schools, 3 of us, sis bro n me, but again, she got the wrong roads. Sigh.. well anyway we managed to get it, bt its full. So have to wait till nex year, probably after we came back from sg. Initially learnt that Indo license can bribe one.. hehe.. but todai I learnt its not that simple as before already. Have to do tests n all.. haha.. GOSH. But still cheap cheap.. hehe.. its about 1 million rupiah, so ard… 170 bucks Sg.. cheap right?
Erm.. since we cannot get to learn driving, I went to have lunch at Puri, where I do my fitness. So me bro n sis have our first lunch together! Haha. Its really nice, the food, the gathering.. everything.. hope we will hve more.. hehe.. we chatted about rely funnie times together too.. so yeah.. =D
Then I went to fITness. Duno why my sis n her friend has this idea that my trainer probably be interested in me. (AUGUST u there? =p) The whole time they’ve been saying that. Well.. he’s been really nice to me, gave about ard 4 hours of training when its supposed to be 1. but more to it theres lotsa lazing and chatting ard also.. but I guess that’s what all trainers do to their clients isn’t it. Try to be nice n all. However, todai he asked me about my bf and asked how long have I been with him.. *wondered what that’s for*
But anyway. I DID RPM AND BODY COMBAT> OMG. I wanted to die on the spot. FELT DEAd tired! Haha.. RPM was INSANE! This rapid cycling with extremely high speed practiced. I felt my legs gonna tear while doin it and my *there* was aching like mad* . Body combat was kinda boxing style. Did that when I went California fitness in Sommerset. Wasn’t as good as that. This Celebrity fitness lacks abit of sth. Hmm.. but I enjoyed it either way. Just that as soon as I got out from the gym my ears got abit DEAf! The music was damn lOUD!
Well.. soon after, I bathed there and went to TA straight away to retrieve my reserved clothes from Mango! Hehe.. cos todai they have sale, up to 50 %! Hehe.. and.. I went ther on wed so they told me to reserve and collect it on Fri since I wuld save lots so yea..
Basically have had a long day.. OH! When I was at Celeb fitness, dah dah told me that he isn’t going to meet up todai! YEAYYYYYYY YIPPEEEEEEE HURRRAYYYY SO happYYYYYYYYY hehee.. cant help smiling when i knew that.. hhaa.. well.. then, to think about it, all those quarrelings and tix tihngy was such a STUPID thing to have happened.. I guess.. its just meant to happen.. now we are already on talking terms, in fact, realy happy talking to each other, he is asking me to bring MARTABAK from indo this Sunday! Haha.. n I know the trios Angela tsunTIng n TOigoon wants dunkin donuts.. What else huh.. Oh I hav to buy indomie goreng for AUG’s cousin! Haha.. what else what else? Hey if anyone wants anything, please let me know oke?!.
Haa.. I guess the quarrel makes us closer. Quarrels always do isn’t it? Though there are exceptions still.. (like what tsunting always tells me.. haha.. she surely has at least a quarrel with her best friend, that’s what keeps it going).. gee hee..
tomorrow will be another long day..gg to yumcha in the morning.. then gg to ear doctor in the afternoon..! hey for those who has dry ear shits, this is what my bro n sis gg to do tomorrow! Its pretty shiok.. haha u get to remove about 2 cm of ur ear shit off ur ear man.. my bro n sis were so exicted my mom booked an appointment with the doc.. haha.. aug u want that right? =D
shAnz
3:02 AM
Haven’t been bloggin for ages! Hehe.. I know I know.. being lazy n all..but thanx to tsunting peepz.. hehe.. im here again.. =D
Summarizing what I did todai.. hrm.. well I woke up sometime ard 10 am.. had branch.. which was surprisingly tasted super weird and had twice of this nature call! Omg it was kinda pain. Followed by which I went straight off to fitness with cousin sherly. Sis got too sick in the ass n legs due to RPM yesterday that she cannot afford to go fitness todai. Haa..
Well… first thing off we looked for Ari.. our trainer.. who went to explain the stuff to my couz then I wandered off to do treadmill for abt 25 minutes then I did those weird abdominal and leg curls exercises which made me feel my legs were going to get chopped off or sth after doing a few rounds.. haha.. but its kinda fun knowing that it has those lil benefits.. *crosses fingers*
Right at 4pm.. there was this latin dance going on at the class hall.. I was hesitating to go.. because my cousin wanted to leave early because her back has some allergy and she got too itchy herself that she couldn’t stand doing anymore heaty exercises.. so yea.. I told her to forget about that.. even though Ko Ari and herself kept telling me to just go but the thing is.. going myself would be such a weird thing to do.. I lack of confidence too.. so yea. Have to go withouht that I thought.
Well back in the changing room.. I saw bErtha, my sis’s fren.. and she just arrived and when she asked if I wanna leave she was kinda upset.. and then I asked if she wanted to do Latin dance, n she agreed if I want to go with her too! So yeayyy there u go..
Haha
I was late 10 minutes, but tried to catch up with the steps.. it was sooo hard! But I kinda get it slowly.. hehee.. was kinda amusing.. it looked like im in an aquarium where every human being stared into, doing some really funni actions shaking ur butts an all.. actually I was one of those evil human beings laughing at the previous group who did latin dance.. cos they relly looked humorous ( that is if they are new) as u can see.. Karma happens..so i must have been a laughin stock too.. hauhauhaa..
Oh well.. really getting sleepy now.. cannot take it.. *yawnz*
shAnz
2:56 AM
