its finally swot vac. uni has ended. but it doesnt make any difference really; i meant the "excitement" and "happy holidays" mood any students would have felt. But it gets worse, the pressure is back, mood tightened, notes piling up, time passes even faster; suddenly its dark. n i dont think i did anything fruitful today. then.. sleeping times seem to shorten drastically, umm appetite increased (haha), even what i once thought was impossible actually happened! ---> dah dah stopped playing W0W (wakaka)!
this semester had passed so quickly i can even remember what i did in my first tutorials... sigh.. WHY? haha.. showed how much my life has been so stagnant, not much vivacity at all. just study n assignments n reports... although there was the fishing and the movies and karaoke sessions n tennis.. n... nothin much really.
im actually moving quite well at marketing, maybe because its easy to understand... anwae, was bored.. and started to scroll down my msn list, and i cant help but notice something really annoying. yes, i understand its exam period, but why 'DND PLZ' + cum 4 x "!" somemore. aiyoh. just go n off ur msn lha. how weird hey? what do they expect really. i mean. ur definitely number 1, pissed when someone initiate 'chats'; number 2, busy; number 3, so fierce no one would wanna talk to u anyway.
ok. to think about it, i might be weird myself, why would i notice such things right? haha. im quite weird la..(happy august?) i cannot stand the fact that i have other stuff in mind that ought to be done yet undone.
*hmm* anyway, this, especially dedicated to you: thank you.. fer yesterday's; its a total satisfaction. i had KFC, in like what seemed like years! hueuehuehue... most imptly ure willing to come down to send me home in TRam, and just to have lunch with me.. i cant express how glad i was cos of how much u've changed ( u probably wont last time) ... n today at 1.20pm, u called wondering if i have reached indo embassy, its really sweet. . i duno why.. this time its not about 'finding out' where i was, but its the concern i gained... although there was not big a deal.. but i must admit it made me happy! <-- im really easy to please huh.
Anyway, better get back to studying. ive taken too long a "break" huehuehue
oh. just to make a note, i'd like to express my deepest condolesence to the people in jogja.. read a paper frm Kompas, these people have certainly the worst ever nightmare they can ever have; they are so pitiful! there's this pregnant lady who had to sleep standing whislt holding the baby in her arms, because the ground (notice its not even a floor), was too wet to sleep on! how sad.. the rain washed everything away. not even food nor basic necessities are available..
its inexplicable how much thy are suffering; what they're asking for right now, is really simple. it doenst even have to be monetary items. One victim said, "nasi bungkus saja" ie "just rice box" .. so sad.. i hope the world have heart and eyes.. and help these ppl.. European Union, World Health Organization etc..
*sigh*
told my dad to migrate to sg/ oz... its very dangerous out there.. n he said as long as he prays and do good things consistently, it will be Okay. then i asked, "dont the people in Jogya do good things then? if so, why would this happen to them?" then he said.. it all comes back to karma n reincarnation....*gawd*
seriously, if i had the time n chance, i would ask him more. but my brother had to take my laptop off to sch and so im forced to end the conversation. I mean, im totally confused, doesnt it ever occur that its dangerous dad? First it was tsunami, now this.. i know Jakarta is in safe "plate" but what if... *choy choy* im just worried.... ={
In this world you may have trouble, but dont worry, cos it will make it d0uble =D
shAnz
9:21 PM
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shAnz
5:18 PM
I accidentally snapped at you..
Im sorry, I am in a bad mood...
Right now whenever i need someone to talk to... i guess i have to think twice...
Conversations seem meaningless too..you think?
shAnz
4:38 AM
Today i feel so bete. Heaps of unforeseen bad stuff (s) had happened to me. 1st. Got my rejection letter from Bio21. Its really upsetting because i kinda got naive enough to give myself false hope on successfully approved. Now its none, and although on a positive note, i will be having no limited period to go on a holiday, i still feel that i wont be happy... i longed to go to GC, with someone... yet i think it wont happen... the place i wanna go.. the things i wanna see.. i'll just have to prepare for that.. and money for later... but i doubt.. so many things to pay for at e momnt... 2nd. my brother was caught by tram inspector, cos his tram ticket was with me. sigh. so thats $150 fr that. 3rd. whilst having breakfast, i accidentally poured milk to the carpet.. and over my pants.4th. tried to get it off, using carpet cleaner powder... and then whilst vacuuming if off, i broke the vacuum handle. 5th. went to school for 3 hr lecture straight, happily handing up one of my many many assignments, but realized later that i missed a point. which was relavant. so i had to kinda alter it again. *nth bad - but i jsut dun like the feeling - its meant to be done!*6th. lala n i went to jaycar and we saw ths really cute machine that roughtly says "touch me/ try me/ shocking" - if im not mistaken. so we had our palms over the handles on it... turned it on.. nothing happened. so i removed mine away, and told her it'llprobably electrocute us or sth. she told me to put my hands back and as i did it.. i realized 1/2 seconds later i was right. so... i screamed really loud... and practically threew my handphone down on the ground (luckily it was carpeteD) and she burst into laughter. *grrr* ... what horrible toy!! who the hell invented it hey? how can they sell this anway.. "but honestly i thought of buying it, so i can punish the ppl who are naughty" *hehehe* well anwiay, luckily there was loud music blasting away in the store.. so no one, i think, saw me freaked out... 7th. my internet practically lagged..... moving at the rate like snail moving with its shell upside down.... (can it?) sigh.. im rushing my 7 reports loh.. and so far.. i managed to complete 1!! and i need to do researches.. lOADs of them in order to complete these!! 8th. i had to do preparation for marketing tute tml.. and the case study for his week is on web... OF ALL WEEKS, it had to put it on the web this time. usually they have it on the txbk, n when i GOT my txbk with me this time, the case study is not from there! so frustrating!! and i had to wat for 1.5 hour for the pdf file to load for me to read it...i guess its meant to be... today lady luck certainly hates me... anyway, i really am annoyed with this service at my apt. so lousy! im now almost 4 mths in my rent and i see no improvements at all. no tel service till now!! oMG!!! i cant wait tll the day i get my super fast unlimited internet! n by then i would have finished all my assgm.. wth.. seriously i dont know why i am in this state at the moment. really regretted not getting whiteman street... Again.. i always regretted the things i do.. the things i say.. the decisions i make.. the reasons i give.. the excuses i made... that is why i am what i am where i am who i am today... Life seems so meaningless these days....
shAnz
1:52 AM
In conjuction to our weekly assignments to this particular subject; Tech of Food processing, we had our so far-the-fourth factory visits; this time to CUB. Carlton- sth- Brewery... house. It was really dreadful at first, I was scheduled the morning group, so had to get up really early at 7.. (considering i slept at 4am the night before).. so yah.. cold and all sleepy.. me n the girls took the tram down and amazingly, we were 1/2 hour early! (which is really funny, cos we are the late-coming-students; not jane though)
the BRew house was sooo cool! This is the cleanest and exclusive factory ive ever seen. Furthermore its located in Zone 1! most factories are like Zone 3... never fails to bore me even before i get there. so i was all excited n happy! especially when we were told that we were gonna get beer tasting at the end of the whole "tour". yes, "tour". sa
dly, we have to do assgn on that. report on the beer processing analysis. but its all good i guess. cos it was so interesting and the multi-tasked tour leader kept repeating herself so much i kinda have done the report there and then up in my mind; somehow. - her name's Ros. haha. "Ross" *giggles*
basically, one of the major components in beer-making is live yeast (sth u avoid if u find that in ur food) and hops (the grossest bitterest ugly smelly PLANT that's grown on earth). The pilot lab leader (apparently my 1st year student mentor) actually gave out these hops for us to smell. the moment my nose was like 10cm away from the jars, i almost puked.
Loved the packaging line; they do fillings of beer bottles at like millions/ hour which is so amazing. At least i think it is. so these guys lined up like "little soldiers" like what stella desribed and uh.. so cute! hauhuaha.
then the good part of all, i get to drink 4 diff samples of beer, 1 light, 1 medium and 2 full strength ones. though 4, i had like 5 or 6 samples, of few mouthful each
*cheat* i mean, fresh from the tap duh... light was good- think its sterling, medium was better! then it comes to barking duck and this beer cum coke which taste so weird i smelt hops. then.. oh, i forgot what are the nx 2 samples i tried. 
Overall, the trip was quite beneficial, though i still have hopes on choco factz ones.. hehe..
ok, that thing sticking out there is my last finger, freaky!
Ah.. oh well.. that trip ended only half a day, which is really GREAT! but only for a while, cos after i buy lunch with my girls, i had to go back home to do my marketing assignment. Another factory analysis. uhhhh... but the good thing is im able to meet up with dah dah. (cos im doing it with him) so u see.. silver lining. (^0^)
well.. because i promised to get lunch for him and it was 1pm by the time i'm done buyin lunch, i kinda rush myself cos i felt bad. it takes me about 1.5 hour to get to his hoz!
here's a funny thing: while waitin fr the tram, lala pressed the tram info button and it says 4 min to go. thinkin ther's probably time to draw some cash frm the ATM, 3 of us crossed the road to queue. Then suddenly Jane told us its ther. Quietly, lala turned around, and ran off. i ran after her. sadly, wrong direction. she ran towards the next tram stop, which is like 2 blocks away. so we had to "sprint" and smartly for jane, she turned the right direction, which is like 2 metres away to the tram stop. *lol*
However, all worn out and still panicky, i still put dah's interest at priority, thinkin how i can ensure he wont go starving waitin for me. hENce explains why i kinda moody at that time... when a little argument went on..
But it was all good, luckily, cos i had a Good loud laugh after watching Friends 4th episode of the 8th series. I totally recommend that. ^0^
However, we spent the whole day doing this, which i can happily say we're 80% done!
pretty much a fruitful day...
shAnz
1:05 AM
In conjuction to our weekly assignments to this particular subject; Tech of Food processing, we had our so far-the-fourth factory visits; this time to CUB. Carlton- sth- Brewery... house. It was really dreadful at first, I was scheduled the morning group, so had to get up really early at 7.. (considering i slept at 4am the night before).. so yah.. cold and all sleepy.. me n the girls took the tram down and amazingly, we were 1/2 hour early! (which is really funny, cos we are the late-coming-students; not jane though)
dly, we have to do assgn on that. report on the beer processing analysis. but its all good i guess. cos it was so interesting and the multi-tasked tour leader kept repeating herself so much i kinda have done the report there and then up in my mind; somehow. - her name's Ros. haha. "Ross" *giggles*
*cheat* i mean, fresh from the tap duh... light was good- think its sterling, medium was better! then it comes to barking duck and this beer cum coke which taste so weird i smelt hops. then.. oh, i forgot what are the nx 2 samples i tried. 
