Had a haircut last saturday - it was the shortest haircut ive ever had in a long time - perhaps.. back in sec sch? nah, think it was pri sch. haa.. but it was alright i guess. new semester, new life, new beginning. =D
well things have gone pretty much the same.. since holidays.. - the sleeping late, the hoggings on Friends-shows, the weekend gatherings.. Told myself i will be, MUST be more determined to study even harder this semester! but its not happening yet. i think i have so much to revise n everything, researches, projects.. but i have no motivation =(
Today i give myself a break though. well because, i made a decision. hard one. have this connection in me, that little voice in me telling me perhaps i know what i'd like to do for this elective -- managing projects n events! partly cs dah is taking it, but i must admit i understood this better than when i was at Ogranisational Behavior lecture last fridaY! well.. i hope this would be a good subject to do.. *crosses fingers*
thing is, i went up to Said, prepared myself he's probably gonna have a lil 'war' with me in his office, however, he happily approved me! n gosh ive never felt so relieved - as in, yes. he was mean! he went all the way to make me feel so low n useless n guilty n all.. n i swore i couldnt even sleep in peace knowing i have this guilt consience.
i remember throwing tantrum in front of my bestie lala cos aug was mean. i hate to be treated in a harsh way when im down and stressed out - n by 'harsh' i mean uncomforting and impatient and loud and the look in the face with one eye bigger than the other, so when the eyebrows rise higher than the other, and that when forehead shows wrinkles. *hmpf*
i want a soft and calming advise... i want a soft pat up my head not a guy-2-guy nudge on the arm? yes i agree i was overreacting with Said's rude n un-senior advise/ words n i-duno-what-black records he was giving me? haih.. n the last day of the tute's enrolment n stuff? it was killing me! ='(
but luckily it all turned out well after dinner =D dinner was great @ Than Than! n was specially recommended by lala, though nothing on the menu she recommended was ordered =p
well after dinner, we went to Melb central's La Favorite cafe which have already closed for the day, sit @ one of those tables n talk it through. practically talked fer 4 hours straight, going over our problems and everything else..it was a good talk, though i cant help but notice ther's this mice *really small n grey n it looked like a cute hamster somehow*, keep popping out @ the corner of the pillar like every 10 minutes, cos my squeals apparently shoosh it off, otherwise it would have made it over to the other pillar. . . . n there was this indian couple making out like 4 tables right in front of mine. where the clock hand points @ 12. it was so disturbing. cmon lah. indians making out in public? i thought only the locals. n it was disturbing. i think they smooched for like 10 minutes. arent they tired? keep telling dah to move to the seat right opposite me but he wouldnt listen, he prefer to sit diagonally next to me. so hell i have to see that.
Then suddenly i saw head popping out of the corner of my right eye above the couch facing away from me. heads, with messy hair. n god. i noticed that like after 20 minutes we started sitting on that table. n it was ard 2 times i squealed when the rat showed up. *n that squealings didnt stop them * gawd! y cant they go to other places man. its a r e s t a u r a n t!
well aniway, we talked and we pointed out each other's mistakes n after sometime started to gossip a little about our dear friends out there.. gee hee hee..
owh.. right.. i havent yet written entries about my gold coast - sydney - brisbane trip... memorable. bonded with my friends, kinda well... but what in there, stays in there. i really wonder if our friendships will go on... n on... even though we all separate this end of the year.. i will miss those days yes..
really admired dah n kev n stan.. they're like the trios. best buddies, never separate since foundi.. once i talked to steph ( i think), w/o one of them, it aint complete. they do weird stuff together, they crap so much i cant remember any. lol. seriously? haa.. but i havent got those kinda girl friends u know.. i think guy friends are so much more friendlier in a way. they dont really judge you, or well.. maybe they do. but i wonder who are my real friends in here... the one i can really be with, forever, its not much like u know.. just uni friends, but more than that. i think lala's definitely one. have loads of friends everywhere. n hell i happen to confide in i dont know how many of them. but its too hard to maintain such close rlnships when u have other stuff you got to do? mainly with dah, uni, siblings and.. foundy friends.. yet again, its scattered already. but i wonder what its like, again, if im no longer in oz. did this marketing survey today @ food science project lecture (=p) n one question asked was
what was the hardest thing it's been for you whist studying oversease? n i wrote being apart from family n friends.
hell i hate it when i keep moving from one place to another. my life keep changing, my relationships distants for sure, regardless of what kind. gosh how thankful i am to whoever is the inventor of msn.
anyway, this just popped outa my head. there's another question was, if you could, what's the subject in the world you would like to do?
--> first thought, how to be a millionaire in one month.
ya i wish. we all wish. HAHA!
shAnz
11:18 PM
