Back from Buller ! ! !
this trip's e 3rd year in a row... yet its still great as ever. In fact, its the best so far.
First and foremost, I managed to sleep in the bus.! (hAha - hey.. its critical~) Well at least unlike previous years, i stayed awake and was bored by the 3 hour bus rides.. Secondly, after we got our equipments, we still had 1 hour ride up the mountain to do the Real THING! erh... well i rmb exactly that time last year i had bad nausea cos of the 1 hour roundabout ride up the Mt.. n vomitted up there.. it was a total turn off really. well this time, although i felt stupid i didnt bring the travel sickness pills, i managed to avoid vomittin by forcing myself to sleep! he he by the time i woke up.. ta da! im there! gee i do sleep alot. i think i didnt get enuf sleep like i said, so i was feelin super piggy that day. oh well.. who cares..
Secondly, Im so happy I didn't fall at all for the first 3 hours skiing! Think I managed to overcome a certain extent of my fear of heights.. i took the ski lift 3 times in total - as compared to 0 times last year! ha ha.. and ski -ed ! cant believe i ACtually did ! he he he
Thirdly, my brother enjoyed it.. =D his msn nick's --> new discovered talent *bleah* ha ha ha ha.. he's really good though.. its his first yet he's great at it.. Dah's snowboarding skills improved greatly too =D so does stanley's and fred's haha.. didnt catch the rest but i think everyone's especially enjoyed this time round.. surprisingly dah didnt leave me alone this year.. he accompanied me throughout, i really appreciate that.. ^0^ ...although @ first i was kinda upset he took snowboarding; instead of skiing when he promised to... but in the end we played together.. so its gd.. =) gee n i did 3 times up the lift for u! i seriously had the heart attack the first time... ='(
it was really enjoyable.. when i skiied.. it was unexplicable. felt soooo good. urh.. it was breezy.. fast.. i felt free.. almost like flyin.. hnn.. =_='' Did attempt few turnin patterns.. though wasnt that smooth.. ha ha! hmm the snow was kinda thick too.. thanks to the snow fall the day b4.. was kinda expecting it to be pretty much gone due to the weird warm weather recently in Melbourne.. (as alwaiz.. duh)
Anyway, loved the time when four of us (me dah stan and fred) took the lift together. =D that time i was in the middle so its good ha ha.. i hate to sit at the side when i felt like i could just slip off the handle and fall or sth. We didnt manage to get to the top of the mountain though! arg! kev n rose did. they said they almost reached the clouds. took some pictures ( it was beautiful) and then took the lift down again.. didnt dare to snowboard down cos it was too steep.. haa.. geez.. i was told that idea 10 minutes to the end of our snow trip. cih.. was too late! ! ! hnmm... this is what i'll do. After my photoshop course i will do something about their pics and modify it to mine. hauhauhuahuaa... *evil thoughts* stupid kev wanted to sell me those pics for ... hundred bucks ?
Although sis wasnt really getting it until the last 2 hours.. she told me she likes it =D got the hang of it @ the end of the whole thing.. Guess i have to thank William too though.. For takin care of her. He was the most patient guy I've ever seen.. so good to my sis.. Coachin her n everythin. . *smells sth fishy* ha ha ha ha n they both denied they like each other =_=''
on the way back.. I managed to sleep again on the way back home.. he he heh.. it all goes according to how i wanted.. lolz..betcha.. i had fun.. loads.. =D
this morning when i woke up though, my calves hurt.. think i used too much muscles down ther..and due to those bad falls.. so painful it hurts so bad.. so are my shoulders cos i think i slept too much =_='' + i sprained a lil of my left wrist.. yeh.. that reminds me -- it was one of my worst falls cos i almost banged this lil girl.. tried to avoid her.. but.. yah.. it was a bad fall. close to split or so. i was stuck @ this weird position for 5 minutes.. cih.. think that's the cause why im in pain now.. fu says eat banana.. duno how that links but... Banana costs $12/kg these days.. =\ any other fruits? hahaJust a verse from Kiss - bcos im a girl.. I heard that if you give up things too easily to a man,
he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again -= I will still miss you because I am a girl, to whom love is everything =-
shAnz
12:45 AM
found this interesting stuff in a Health Shop, its called Bach Flowers Remedies. Anyone? Check this out: http://www.bachcentre.com/centre/remedies.htm Originated in London, its used as an emergency kit to aid the traumatized victims in any accidents. It works pretty simple, just 2 drops on the tongue and thats it. well Vargo's gonna do some research for me, he says.. so if it workss...... n with no side effects... i might get one... maybe i do need more than one... lol.. its been some time since i last spent quality time together with the indoes.. Chris n Eugene.. haa.. how great ha.. i can c how happy chris is.. really glad for both of them.. so is Kev n Rose.. hmm.. ppl change so swiftly.. duno why.. these days i have been unintentionally exposed to various romantic and loving couples. so envious.. but.. i dont know im too confused, have too much mixed feelings right now.. oh i so need a remedy.
Had dinner@ Thai Taste, meant to try out for nx week's aug's bday dinner.. they had such delicious delicacies, like soft shell "crap" and bbq chix.. yummm.. ha ha ha ha.. not forgetting ther's gonna b Pork Shank.! woo.. haa.. yea.. ths has been sometime i had one of those rare proper meals with him.. he's always been busy.. =(
Anyway, had to go Mt Buller tml @ 4am. Had to wake up by 3am, 3 hours from now n im not even asleep. Yesterday had only 2 hours sleep cos i cant get to bed and had to do a bit of thinkings.. bu.. indeed Made ME thINk. well.. instead i resolved it by writing a complain letter to this building management regard to some infrastructure etc.. *yawn*better get to bed.. this is the third time im blogging tonight, thanks to me not gg "Cntrl + C" darn! it died on me jst like that. ! hmpfff...
Fu.... I DID IT! ha ha.. well not in a grandmother story today ha.
LY: ive fINIShed your letter! ! ! However i didnt manage to post it todai cos it was all cold and rainy todaiiii sob.. n i was too lazi to get out of the cosy room n suddenly it was after 5... *oops* so sorrrieeeeee... doNT SColD me yaaa so sorriii! ! ! ! =p owh on a good note, u'll be pleased to read many of my interesting stories.. HAHa! rmB, u owe me double ! ! !
Tsunting: come to melbourneeee ! ! ! =D
Dah: i need a remedy. any. haa
shAnz
11:46 PM
feelin so lost todai.. haha..
1. Intended to do some work @ uni after the ONLY class i have todai.. --> forgot to bring the red file. everything i could possibly work with is in there. so yea. well i remember chucking it last night in my drawer. why did i do that ha?
2. The photocopied, unbinded thick stack of textbook for this subject/ assignment will be of help, i thought. so i brought it aniway, get it binded. it was so heavy! (hmpf) anw whilst this guy was binding it, i thought i had no cash. so i asked if i could use EFTPOS. yEs, but $10 min spent. well since it costs $4.50, so i had to insert $10 to this specialized card of theirs. hesitated, cos i dont n wont go to this photocopy shop @ all in near future, since its not quite accessible. but had no choice. did it aniway, but realized i had cash after the transaction. =_=''
3. After i left the shop, n was 5 minutes away from my lecture, i realized i had few copies of notes that i had to photocopy. BUT i forgot to do it then. *manz*
4. Went to this only lecture and realized we were still @ lecture 3, didnt quite finish it last lecture. n I had lecture 4 with me. in fact, 2 copies of lecture 4, one for stella, and amazingly the lecture 2. hell. y did i go to school today? haa
hilarious. well my girls tell me i do that all the time. so it wasnt new to them. they just shake their heads and smile. hmff..
went home aniways, thought i might as well do it @ home.. had 3 different assingments to do this week.. work n work n work.. sobs.. n mY brain's kinda fully-loaded, with only what seem like 1mB left..
had to re-edit-edit this proposal, over n over again. so confusing. haa.. hell is that most scientist life out there? man.. to dvelop own methods n procedures.. n basically research reserach n research.. so b o r i n g. . . .
then the other one.. due tuesday.. haa n my com wasnt cooperating with me. stupid com. it cant open certain websites. n it had to be those important websites i had to view! =_=''' i guess i had to do it in uni over the next few days.
halfway through my assingment, had to let my sis take over for her assignment, so i went to read my notes, WHilst lying on my bed.. which is something any student with an assignment due should not do, because yes. i fell asleep. Huahuahuaha... *oops*
well i woke up aniwae, cos i had this strange sad dream.. dreamt of my mom n dad.. I MISS THEM! ! ! !! yah, i really miss them.. in that dream, they were all here.. n working.. the structure of the apt is exactly the same, except that the door was @ the window.. but to think again, it was bigger than this, so i guess it was more of a house.. well aniwae.. it was indeed a cosy house.
i remembered chatting n playin with my mom on the bed, when my dad came home from work.. it was so real! well then to my despair he says he had to go again. sigh it was late.. but he had to go still because of company concerns. why is it so similar.. even back in reality he always do that to mom.. then i snapped n tell him he shudnt, n tell him various reason of how he should have been there with mom n not alwais leave her alone..regardless its for work/ tennis/ sch.. of course i brought up if i was treated the same way by aug i would be really upset. well my mom n dad have this issue so perhaps i may seem exaggerating, perhaps only some will know what im going through..
then in that strange dream, my dad understood me, n gave me the childish frown look, n says ok, i understand.. --> HUH??? how could that be? well he went to Andrie's room anw, then as we sat by the bedside, he sobbed. ---> HUHH? then i vividly remembered hugging him close.. how sad..
--> owh we did woke my brother up, n he had this funniest expression with his nostrils somehow enlarged, mouthing --> WHY? haa
well somehow dad n mom was talking out there telling her he still has to go. the dream sort of ended there.
woke up n my sis was still @ the com.. idiot. still not done yet with her work.. it was 2 am! anw, the first thign i did was call out her name. she thought i was talking in my dreams. so she ignored me for a while. *grr* gee.. told her abt it. n she said maybe it was somekind of a message sent by my dad.. gila aja..
then i thought again, maybe he feels really bad, the crying was real though.. my brother can be a shocked-witness too there in my dream!! yea.. he feels bad, but he still had to go. why why why? *touch wood* if its brainwashed by someone; hell im gonna hunt that person down.
hai. cant help but cry at my stupid dream. i told my sis because i miss them. but its also.. bcs.. my dad cried whilst hugging me, maybe becuz i nv seen my dad cry before. also bcos i know he has certain hidden feelings that he cant say, troubled n all. most importantly i think i'd love the fact that we can live together again. 21-8 = 13. 13?? been away for the past 13 years. omg, its that long, hey?
wish when i wake up one day, mom n dad are too.. preparing for work, while sis, bro n myself prepares for work/ uni/ school. All of us living together. i miss those days.. if it had been that way all these while, none of thse problems would have arised between dad n mom.. nor us n them.. we've been out too long! but im thankful of course, dont get me wrong... i guess i just miss them..
fu: thanks for all the help earlier. it was so nice of you. very much appreciated =D n.. yea.. i wish i can sneak out n tip toe all the way back too.. miss the scoldings haha.. except that i dont need to, they aren't here.. =D
shAnz
3:07 AM
I've been waiting... Felt like I've never waited this long before... y cant i have it when i needed you most? just @ the time i thought i could have a shoulder to cry on? i need to talk to you. . but i dont know how to. The feeling's like how you never find the stuff u are looking for, but its always there when u are not. That. and by the end of the day, when you found it; u dont know what to do with it suddenly. . . @ 21, I still am stubborn as ever. No im not innocent. I just chose not too accept some facts. I hate to learn i have to accept them. good news is, im trying. . its not easy, i was scarred. once, twice, three times... the optimist voice in me says: great. for all different types of flaws, nothing is gonna happen for a 2nd time. the down-to-earth says: you are so doomed - forever paranoid. wth. I love you. but im scared.
shAnz
1:18 AM
I woke up this morning and i realizedI may forgive, but i cant forget. Its never gonna be the same again.
shAnz
10:33 AM
