h0pity h|p|ty h0p song ~~ haHa.. In the midst of my bored0m n relieving stress whilst doin my assignment in my br0's rooM.. i found these really nice songs.. haa but the nicest would be ...
-- THE ROSE by SOWELU --
shAnz 5:18 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
ima horrible person.
no one understands me.. at least I thought you would..
I blame myself. I really am sorry.
shAnz 2:47 AM
Friday, September 22, 2006
O dear...
Yesterday, Stanley frets about his decision about his postgrad studies too. Masters vs. Honours. Everyone's telling him to apply for everything; Including job applications too. Well… *poor him* I thought. . . . . had headache bcos of this... Little do I realize I am actually in the same boat.
Few days ago, I was oblivious to the dilemma I'd face after I graduate -- or even, before that. I know I will be; sooner or later.
Today I realized, "that", has to be settled even sooner than I thought.
Gosh. All along I wasn't that worried because I had a plan --- to get a job after I graduate, then apply for Masters in Applied Commerce (Marketing). Here in the commerce postgraduate booklet says, "designed to enable young professionals to develop, implement and control integrated marketing programs, work closely with managers in other functional areas" OK. So Food Science and Marketing -- fair enough? Or so.. I thought.
I've just applied Bachelor of Food Science (Honours) in RMIT this afternoon. (right nw, apply everythin' aint it?) I've also been offered Honours program in Bachelor of Food Science (Hons) in Melbourne University; but have yet applied. However, approximately after few months of observation of these Honours seniors on what they do etc., I kinda lost interest. Lots of thoughts are going through my mind right now; not everyone can enter Honours program I know... but its all based on interest isn't it so? With Honours degree, I may be able to get Phd. Which by the way dah, its known as Doctor of Philosopy =p
So when I came home, I thought, I might as well do a couple of researches for this. The situation turned from bad to worse. NOW I have a more choices in mind;
1) WORK 2) Master of Applied Commerce (Marketing) - Mel Uni 3) Master of Applied Commerce (Operational Management) - Mel Uni 4) Bachelor of Food Science (Honours) - Mel Uni 5) Bachelor of Science (Food Science) Honours) - RMIT 6) Master of Biotechnology (Food Microbiology) - RMIT 7) Master of Biotechnology (Clinical Microbiology) - RMIT 8) Forgood – Work in SG
Haa.. what should I do?
shAnz 6:54 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
-=- speechless =-=
shAnz 7:51 PM
awwww.. such a nice Japanese drama.. highly recommended! there's only 11 episodes too. . look look i found the lyrics heheheh..
=-=- Aya-chan & Asou-kun =-=-
kanashimi no mukou kishi ni kohoemi ga aru to iu yo tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa mani ga bokura wo matteru
nigeru tame ja naku yume oi tame ni tabi ni deta hazu sa tooi natsu no ano hi
ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni ima wa mae he susume
TRANSLATION
On the other shore of sadness, it is said that there is a smile. Finally we arrived, but what are we waiting for?
The purpose is not to run away, it's to chase dreams. We should have gone to travel, on that summer day so long ago.
Even tomorrow, if you see it, though there isnt a sigh either. Like a ship going against the current flow, right now, go forward, move ahead.
Even if it cuts through the rain and clouds, the wet roads shine. Only the dark will teach, a stronger and stronger light.
Be strong, go forward, move ahead.
shAnz 5:38 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
Its been a while since I got this gush of exhilaration of starting the day.
In fact, the tingling of excitement sorta started right after i finished 2 of my major assignments @ approximately 230am todai.
the feeling is so good.. its like.. ooooohhhhhhh..... FINALLY. huahuahuahhuaua... unnn but i woke up late thou. had a class @ 11. but i woke up @ 11.15am. who cares. haa.. assignment over ! hmm... in spite of that, i still had to rush for the nx class @ 12. But, i promised dah dah i will prepare lunch fer him that day. =_='' was wondering if i should cos he was mean to be the nite b4. *hmpf* but.. i promised. so i went to kitchen straight to make this sumptuous toasted wholemeal sandwich with bacon, honey leg ham and scrambelled egg on Famous-Naked-Baby-Print mayonaise. (Heehee). by the time i was done, it was half past 11. gosh. grab some undies, and ran n bathe, rushed tru everitink and managed to catch the tram @ 1154. =_='' OK. Definitely late. but... again, who cares? Assignment OVER! .... at least fer this half of the semester.. hohoho...
anw. apart from that, i was authorized to attend the annual Fine Food & Hotel Australia; held in this massive exhibition area. went there after that only 1 hr lecture i had today which, by the way, i attended for only half hour. =p
That exhibition was so cool! its meant for business purposes actually. fer wholesalers and on-going manufacturers to promote their stuff fer bulk sales or sth like that. BUT.. there were lotsa free samples as well! OF COURSE, thats what all my fellow Food Science peeps and myself are there for. HOHOHO. lets list them.. although all are bite-sized... but .. omygosh..
pastries, sausages, pies, korean pancake, chocolate dips, ice cream, green tea, cookies, rice crackers, corn chips, biscuits... =_=''
but.. who cares? I was having fun! moving from isle to isle... tasting all types of food.. of which some aren't even sure gonna be on the market yet! what an honor. hohoho. sis was complainin why i didnt ask her to go. .. guess i was dumb. yeaH man. i should have told her to register early in the month! @ first i thought this is meant fer just Food-related industries/ peeps.. so i didnt tell her about this registration. but t0dai there wasnt even any inspections on who's allowed to enter or whatsoever. so mayb nx year. I'll be back. We'll be back. . haa
owh i also managed to grab this suPa cOOl deal with this Indonesian kitchen supplier fer this cutey cow print set of "kitchenwares" for just $10, for sth that is worth $30 or so. Then he gave me an extra small pan and blue metal lunch box container fer free ! what a luck ha.
After this amazing trip to the Exhibition, Susan, Chiu Yan and me had a great one hour plus of girls talk.. never had such relaxin time fer so long.. hangin out with my friends and all.. thanks to such a wonderful assignment-free day! unnn.. right after that i rushed back hOme to meet up wit my cousins who just came last Sunday. we had a good reunion of course, with all those updates and jokes and rubbish we talk whole night... not forgetting the simple yet purfect delicious plate of souvlaki @ this greek restaurant..
I also had a good tiMe shoppin groceries or should i say junks @ laguna followin dinner.. and guess lady luck's wit me.. dont know why but suddenly everythin's so cheap! bought like 2 full bags fer only 20 odd bucks. =_='' when i reached home, i realized i had an e card greeting =D i love mails! its so sweet too..
look, what a great simple day. what more can i ask for? =D *wonder when my letter's comin tho.. * tick tock tick tock.. its been 2 weeks hellooo?? ^0* time flies.. ha...
hmm.. that reminds me. i have an IELTS test this SAturday.. havent really started studyin this. well..ppl say its easy, cos its General (PR), so nth to worry about. but i guess i still hve to memorize my resume or sth. just in case they'll interview me on my attributes and project/team work experiences. =P (heehee)
ummm... tHAt also reminds me, after Saturday, my 2 weeks holiday starts. and right after that, i'm left with 5 more weeks of school. after which i will sit for 3 final examinations, and then, announced as a Bachelor graduate student.
time flies...
was browsing my past archieves and realized.. so many things have changed... mostly my happiness.. not that i grew less of it.. its jst not the same sort of happiness i used to have.. but im glad for what I have this very moment, with all my new close friends and sister and cousins.. and new activities around me.
also.. it is so hard to forget.. i still cant forget... 11 mnths ever since.. and its still goin on in me..
The saying goes... "A retentive memory is a good thing, but the ability to forget is the true token of greatness,"
OH I AM a forgetful person, many people can second to that. Thing is.. I tend to forget the wrong memories... ='(
Do you realize that most of the time, you dont listen to your heart?
Why not?
ego? unknown or "known" fear? stubborness? temptations? curiosity or perhaps . . . . tinge of stupidity?
do you end up in regrets? yea.. but u know thats inevitable dont you? =\
tell me, there is no such thing as its too late, no? Having said that, you follow your heart.
But tell me, what if... the cycle repeats itself again. . . . . ?
=_=''
shAnz 3:49 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
hEYYYYY! ! ! ! !
h3r3 goes... my 1st vide0clip entry! hehe *thanks to fu* =D
erm erm erm..
@ this moment this song has been on my mind fer a few days.. thanks to my sis suddenly bringin this up whilst makin a movie fer her media project.. *lol* anyway.. As my fave pastime (as usual =_='') i watched "I'm Sorry I Love You" last summer hols... its one of great korean dramas, other than Full House. trust me =D
OH OH OH ! part of it was casted in Melbourne, cool ha. he he he he...
Also, just wanna share with you peeps.. what i thought is the best American Comedy show ever - FRIENDS; here take a look @ the bloopers...
Hopefully these can entice you (fer those who havent start watchin yet) to start hogging ur dvd players to watch it right away! h0h0h0
Fell in lurve with it - think i watched it twice nw from season 1 - 10, n never fail to laugh OUT loud at the same jokes.. *-^ yep its 10 years of filmin.. n certainly lifetime of memories and laughters... =D
Enjoy!
Blooper Part 1/2
Blooper Part 2/2
shAnz 3:06 AM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Why do we have nightmares?
Why do I get it 2 nights in a row? sobsob..
funny thing is, dah called and woke both me n sis up... was complainin to him abt my nitemares n all.. practically blaming him for what he did in the dream.. which i think was so mean of me because he definitely wasnt at any fault. its just sth i made up. well.. it could be premonition though, could it possibly be?
Anyway, when i've finished, sis was complainin i was so noisy and the phone call disturbed her dream --> whICH was, having this sumptous meal of ma po to fu and roast duck in indo =_='' omg. when can i dream these kinda dreams?
i realized there are reasons behind these. do notice the little things/ symbols.. it could make really lotsa sense. f0r instance,
"falling" --> Loss of honor. Fear of failure. Loss of power and feeling out of control.
"food" -->Pleasure or greed. Nourishment. Fortune in love affairs. <-------- which is so true fer my sis... *no wonder lha* ha ha ha ha "fear" --> Unexpressed love. Self-doubts. Courage. *hmmm*
"shock" --> Unexpected blow. Great surprise and agitation. Need for awareness.and awakening.
"smiling" --> Pleasure. Affection. Joy. Looking for something that makes you happy
"snow" --> Purity. Clarity. You want a fresh start.
As dreams can feel very real a nightmare's can be full of terror and fears that can be very real and sometimes repetitive. For some this kind of dream brings a real terror which can seem inescapable.
If you or somebody you know are having nightmares, then using Lavender oil sprinkled on the pillow or a couple of drops on the forehead (Lavender can be used undiluted) or a piece of Amethyst crystal by the bedside are just a couple of things that can be done to bring back sweet dreams. worth a try =}
shAnz 6:15 PM
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Hates to be lied to.
Loves to be loved =D
So much beauty in life
Shining on the outside
Empty on the inside. . .
