e s o p h o r i a - it's all about how you perceive me.

Last week was practically the busiest week I've had ever. It was nothing compared to the whole month of exam period/swot vac really. Well.. I must say its as bad as assignment weeks though. Though to think of it. I sorta have forgotten how exactly it felt like, given by the fact I'm too overwhelmed by the constant realization that I AM Graduated! well.. technically I. . . am =p
Sorry guys, just too thrilled.
hahahahahhahahaha...

hehehe so.. just to sum up perhaps?

20th November

Few minutes to midnight, I clearly remembered I felt nothin.
Nothing like. special or of much.
Neither happy nor excited.. =/
Maybe because I cannot accept the fact I have an exam
that very afternoon..
taking up half of what's meant to be my special day.. =(
and that.. well.. there's some other issues..
well anyway,
Whilst I was in the midst of muggin
(well not exactly - more of like dazzling away)
the phone started vibrating. . . hehehehe
and SO there goes my last teeny weeny bit of
concentration span...

Really appreciate all the wishes and bday greetings though =D
from all of my family and friends..
It was really my honor and fortune to have people like you guys...

Especially my siblings..
u know.. there's nothing as magnanimous as family love in this world! ! !
This year was exceptionally heart melting for me;
'cos besides representing Aug with the surprise cake
they also came with a prezzie - - iPod movie
one that was least expected. >.<

Honestly speaking, I didnt need a new ipod. My ipod mini was good.
Just that technology being technology, battery ran out. so.. yea..
Sure I felt it was wasted, but
happy, surprised and touched at the same time...
It wasn't much coz of the present.
More of the thoughts. . .
I just appreciate the thought that they got me this because
the ol mini might be spoilt though we never really mention it out loud.
sigh

It was hell waste of money of course!
I still couldn't believe it.
Im not an electronic person so its
pretty much something to brood about..
afterall.. its their own money. =(
I was so touched I was lost for words. . .
even till today, all I could say was umpteen thanks..

Most importantly, they put in a lot of effort into planning this surprise. I thought dah would be the main actor, but I have mentally prepared that he would not be able to do so eversince months ago, so I was prepared that The day was probably gonna be like the other normal days. So the fact that they threw me one;

was the reason for my tears of joy.

***
Fortunately, the exam went pretty well!
It was unbelievably the Smoothest exam I have ever sat!
*crosses fingers*
It was probably due to the weather
and the MOOD of course +D =D XD
I received warm hugs and handshakes before the exam . .
Owh owh and more friends n juniors were tapping my table
wishing me hp'bday as they moved silently along the endless isles of the seats in the mansion-like-REB. . .
hehehehe
i felt special suddenly =P LOL

Anyway, thanks to these lil encouragements
I managed to pull through the final 2 hour exam
and i think i was smiling WIDE
as i handed the papers in to the invigilators.
*YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY*

Similarly, Tin Tin who was sitting right behind me
Being her, who's as high as always,
screamed suddenly at the top of her voice
-- of happiness of course.
Hahahaha OKay so she did that out loud.

The rest of the day was mere window shopping for gowns
and accessories for the ball.
Followed by dinner with my family and... thats it.
I was happy anyway, because I know the party is not till Saturday,
so it was all cool. At least I have lots of stuff to look forward to.
=)

special thanks to my friends back in Spore + L.A *-^ for all the birthday greetings.. Thanks Lieyang, Lifen, Shangfu, Joanna, Christopher, Marcus, Gary, Andriany, Khoimun, Jasmin, C sindy, Isnaya, Tsunting, Andy, Terence, Angela, Brandon, Adeline, Jilian.. =) Also, thanks Tsun, Toigoon, Lieyang and Joanna for your birthday cards and gifts all the way from Singapore + Perth ^-* .. its really sweet of you guys...

Tsunting: U are unbelievable... I almost cried. I love you too =p

Toigoon: I was surprised u remembered how I spent my 17 vividly.. I remembered everything u said except for Stuart Little 2 just the 4 of us. I MISS those days.. =)

This came in the morning
Thank you.... it made me smile =)

....I turned 21.

21st November

The day started off with a meeting with my PR agent
to process my application.
Almost forgotten about that,
because that was appointment i made a month ago;
of course oblivious that I had so many occasions
then in the week.
Anyway, it was pretty fast,.. i think..
Then there were more window shoppings at
bridge road - except that I didnt buy any.
I fell in love with this dress i saw in Review,
and although the motive was to find better dress,
it only made me realize how much I really like
the one i set my eyes on before..

so then the next thing to do was meet up with dah dah
and we headed to Myers - they have SALES!
except that.. there was none on Review section.
*grrrrr*
I bought the Review dress anyway.

It was almost 9 and dah was starving so we left
and went to the Old Raffles Place for dinner !
GAWD it was the closest we have in Melbourne
to what Spore food's really like . . .
I must say its pretty good; the menu was hilarious;
they have Eunos's famous fried bee hoon,
Penang belachan mee goreng and Geylang's beef hor fun
or something like that..

i wonder if thats for real. lol..

22nd November

Morning - Had to do medical check up at 10am
It was .... horrendous.
Shameful. Embarassing. And. Humiliating.

During a medical check up,
any of you happen to know that u have to remove your clothes
and cover urself up in a blanket before the doctor examines u,
prior to any instructions?

Please tell me no, because I dont.

He merely told me to get ready,
get behind the curtains and get on the couch.
Without further questions,
here goes naive me,
sitting up the bed with clothes and jeans on;
only to be told later to remove everything, yes everything.

So here goes stupid me, removing everything,
although still in MAXIMUM doubts of why i should
but lied on the bed anyway as told.

When i went out of the clinic, i asked susan,
if she had to do the same, she said yes,
but with fULL instructions and WITH blankets.
gosh. i wish i could dig a hole and disappear.

STUPID DOCTOR!

***
Anyway, the day went on with shopping for Janice's prezzie. -
Got her Swarovski's handphone

pendant
- it was GORGEOUS.
I think this is the best gift I think we have bought ever for someone;
because I know Janice (or anyone) will definitely love it.
and also cos....(I'm mesmerized by it? Hahahahah)
well I might buy one myself one day.. hehehe..

***
It's Janice's Mexican Birthday Party!
That day was great. We had mexican/ bbq food..
it was one great party! =D
Michelle rented this mexican skirt and the whole night
it was all about photo takings with her special skirt.
She was the Girl of the dAY!
(..oops apart from the bday girl of course)
heheheh

Happy 21st Birthday Janice! !

*taken whilst taking a break hehehe*

Lala n me... *Love ya*

23rd November

I did Kungfu exercise with lala in the early afternoon =p
after shopping for last minute necessities >.<>

My hairstyling was done by sis,

Whilst make up was by Christine.. =)

It was great fun~
Everyone looked different...
Turned from geeks into.. gorgeous ladies (..me aside.. ='/)
well and.. handsome.. geeks still? HAHA
Apart from the lil stupid argument i had with dah..
I got to dance! n.. took millions of pictures..
Of course, heels went ReALLy sore.. and..
I was all dead beat..

Nonetheless, excellent ball!
Cheers to Justine and Janice for all their ceaseless efforts to make this happen!
=D

oh im so gonna miss u guys..

24th November

Morning. again, another appointment
with the PR agent.
I shouldnt have agreed to have that tt then man.
It was just not the right time.
But did it anyway.

Oh yea. and Because i woke up late,
I rushed out and forgot to grab my wallet.
had to bother Susan to alight from the train
to get me a daily ticket for the day.

After the meeting, I was starving but was cash-less.
had to wait for sister to my tummy's rescue..
it was crazy, i cant even afford to get a $2 sushi roll. . lol
I thought forgetting to bring my handphone was the worst,
but this is equally torturing.

Only stopping for 20 minutes to grab
few bites of sandwich i bought from Target,
we met up with lala and shopped for
bday party necessities;
more specifically sushi ingredients
Then we went to party supplies
to get more of other stuffs.

dah joined us not long after
and became the Muthu of the day.
Carried our many many bags of stuff.
He then bought Vic Mart's famous Hot Dog
with Cheese and Onion and Fell in love with it.
=_=

I tried on this dress that I was interested in
and realized that the smallest size they have
was too big for my waist;
then the witty salesperson handed me another one -
hawaiian style with rubber-like material on waistline
and it fits just right. except that...
the boobs part was too loose.

SO, after she commented some low level sarcasm
she left with another dress, and... i tried on..oops..
this time the boobs area was too small

ehhehehe

so she got one size larger and tada~ ~
cool~ if fits just right. Hahaha..

After i changed into my own clothes and
approached the counter, lala n sis was already there and
the cashier told me it was paid for.
Lala was smiling from ear to ear as she said,
"Its for you."

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i was sooo touched! !

geez. it was quite expensive and i
didnt want her to spend that for me..
i felt guilty and wrong.. i dont know..

sigh..
again, i was dumbfounded. thanks la dear.. .

Later on she left and the three of us
went to Safeway and laguna to get the drinks n stuff..
By the time we got home it was pretty late..
but i went on with my sushi trials straight away
and made lil onigiri(s)...

William dropped by to pass me my prezzies -
2 boxes of Krispy Kremes. gosh.. so kind of him..
shudn't have at all.. he's like another sweet guy i know..
wonder why sis isn't u know..

mmm.. finished everything right about 230am..
and went to bed at 330 after bathin n all..
***

I had a deep sleep.

25th November

Woke up at 930am and continued to make more sushis..
Followed by buying more stuff from coles for dessert..

Preparation starts at about 5pm..
I was lucky I had lotsa helpful helpers..
Sister, August, Stanley, Susan,
Tika, Gina, Stephanie, Gareth, Stella and Rizky
SPECIAL THANKS TO YOU guys.
LOVE YA!

Without them, I dont know how I would have cope up anymore.
I was basically tired out by then... ='/

Thanks... guys...

And of course,
thanks for everyone who turned up that day for my party.

Without you guys, my 21st wouldn't be as memorable.

The .... surprise @ the end was amazing!
I get to blow no candles on my bday cake;
but 21 candles held by each person individually.. =P
it was very special indeed.

Thanks Put dear for the idea.. and to everyone..
Thanks for bearing with me and the hot waxes =p

Finally. =)

I hope we'll all stay in touch. *Hugs n Kisses*

shAnz
2:16 AM

My heartfelt condolences to Rove . . .

I've never seen him frown . . . =(

shAnz
7:14 PM

Know how you try and avoid certain things in life;
Tried to avoid it, fight it and deny it;
Yet you always get back to square one?

Yes that's what happens most of the time
where there's always an end to such dilemma;
So there is this one day;
where you have to face the music there and then.

But there are also times
where u stubbornly pick up negligence instead of realism
yet creating this cycle continually;
Although you knew that deep down
you are just getting yourself into accumulated mess?
because there is no way ure gonna evolute from that in any ways u can think of;
even though you very much want to do it your own way,
Although u are also aware of how much uncertainty there is in grabbing on such hopes

but humans are only humans...

shAnz
4:15 AM

It snowed today

Practically the coldest day in a while..
no, its been the coldest everysince winter.

Too bad it happened only in Dandenong/ Lilydale - outer suburbs of Melbourne. haa..
In the city its just raining-ice
I'd love to see how it snows.. =/

***
Time passes so quickly!
Cant believe I have finished two of my papers. . .

It was disappointing for the first though..
In another words,
wasn't good.

Very disappointed and all.
Horrible..
No wonder I had this weird-uneasy-nervous breakdown
the day before. . =/
I thought it wasnt because of that
since I was all prepared..
yet.. it
was just a pathetic omen.

2nd exam was much MUCH better. =D
I felt so happy because I made one lucky CORRECT guess this unexpected qn

Except that. .
I stupidly made an unintentional mistake --
skipped one subquestion (8 marks) =_=''''''
which accounts for abt 5% ! !

=_=''''' I know. . .

****

Anyway, went to do finger-printing at the Police Headquarters today
Susan claimed that this stern-looking cop who served us at the counter
was rude; cold and snappy.

I thought so too at first
But it wasnt long when I found that
whoever he was - police admin staff or sergeant
(since he signed under that on my form)
is sooooo cool and . .
cakeeeppppp ! ! >.<
especially when he smiled at me before he left =)
heuheuhueuehueuhe

When we were all done
we realized it was raining pretty heavily outside
and i was without hoods nor umbrellas...
And we have our precious documents at hand;
the last thing was to get them wet.

so . . . .
since we cant leave..

we hang around this lobby area
though part of the reason was for . . .

(NOT the policeman)

but..

these CUTE chairs/seats ! ! !

*they have plenty of these little precious there*

*AWW*

*lucuuu*

*hmmm enak ya sann?* hahaha

****

Wanted to check out on my brother earlier in the night;
to see if he was muggin hard for his last paper on Friday
AND i found him watching this movie -- Four Brothers =_=

... wanted to scold...
but. . .

The prologue was sooo interesting !
hAHA and I ended up joining him instead

Seriously. Highly recommended; GOOD MOVIE! !
its a 2005 movie though. . .
Hahaha..

http://www.fourbrothersmovie.com

*boohoohoooo*

yea. I better tie myself down in the library from tomorrow onwards.

I'm h a p p y
=)
finally

shAnz
2:39 AM